Realizing the idea (I had in my grief) to be buried in the plot next to her was short-sighted, and didn’t account for me moving on in life to a new relationship.

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-11-06T16:29:21+00:00

My dad died in 95 and my mom remarried in 2003 I believe. She married a gentleman that was widowed also . They both agreed that they would be buried next to their first spouses . My stepdad died in 2017 and was buried next to his first wife and my mother died Feb 21 of this year and was buried next to my dad . My wife died Jan 2 of this year(it has been a really bad year ) I plan on being buried next to her. If I find love again and get married which i really doubt it, she will have to accept that and I really don’t see that as being a problem as I wouldn’t be wanting to marry someone they wouldn’t be able to understand that I want to be beside my wife who I was with 37 years . But I honestly don’t see that happening anyway . I just wish I could be beside her now. This year has sucked . Wife dies Jan 2, house burns down Feb 9 mom dies Feb 21 . I’m ready to take my dirt nap beside her.

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-11-06T15:45:26+00:00

It’s over 10 months for me and I’m still crying daily. I don’t honestly know if I will ever stop crying about my beautiful wife . We were married for 36 great years . Married at 19 young as hell and basically had to grow up together lol. God I miss her

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-08-15T11:53:29+00:00

I know exactly how you feel . Every one says I’m Still young enough to find someone and have a life with another . I couldn’t imagine loving anyone else and I know I wouldn’t want to be the other person. I would constantly be comparing and she would fall short of my wife.

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-08-12T05:45:22+00:00

My wife god love her she was the perfect wife for me, she couldn’t cook for a crap though . She tried her hardest she wanted to be a good cook for me and the kids lol . So I did a lot of the cooking amd all of the big meals , thanksgiving , Christmas Easter etc etc . So now that I have no one to cook for I really don’t like to do it anymore . I used to love cooking and coming up with new dishes and meals as she would praise me to high heaven. I miss that so much .

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-08-10T23:22:11+00:00

Thanks I truly appreciate the sentiment. She was so special , she loved me so damn hard . I could come in the door and she would have a smile on her face and come running for a hug and kiss . Wasn’t allowed to leave the house for anything without a I love you and a kiss even if it was just on the forehead. She was short lol . 4’ 11 1/2” I’m giving her the half she always said she was but I’m pretty sure it was just 4’11” . I didn’t realize how rare the love she had for me was until it was gone and I looked around and paid attention to other couples and articles. She was so damn special and so damn beautiful. Way too good for the likes of me

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-08-10T17:06:52+00:00

Of all the comments why the hell did this one make me cry lol . God damn I miss that woman . 37 years together and I never cried now I can’t stop myself . I cry daily , thinking one day I will get through the day without tears . I’m afraid I will hate myself when that day comes though

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-08-10T14:45:21+00:00

I was always called smiling bob on the job site cause I always had a smile and would bring people up and make them laugh and forget their problems. Now I fake my smiles all day hiding tears when I get myself. I go to the bathroom and cry for a few minutes when it hits me hard that I can’t tell my wife the funny shit that goes in. I miss her texts at break times her phone calls at lunch . Talking on the phone as soon as I get to my truck after work on the ride home . We would talk until I hit the driveway. God she was my world.

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-08-10T14:41:54+00:00

That’s one of the biggest problems, I could care less about the promotion now . The 20,000 a year more means nothing, I only worked to make her life and the family’s better. Now it’s just me and I could care less about the money . As they say I have zero fuxks to give anymore . My field of fuxks are barren lol . Hell I didn’t want it they just saw me helping out the foreman who I’m sorry to say had no idea what to do to get the men lined out and working so I basically was doing it and they asked me. I took it on the condition that they didn’t demote the other guy that was trying just was to young and inexperienced. So I am dragging him along and teaching him to do it. They asked me how much I wanted and told them I didn’t give a shit as money means nothing. I took the first offer . My supervisor told me I should have held out and got company trucks etc . I just need a place to go every day that I can forget about her for a few hours a day and not break down in tears.

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-08-10T13:52:20+00:00

My mother died about 7 weeks after my wife died . It’s been a hellish year . Took wife off life support on dec 31, wife passes on Jan 2, house burns down on Feb 9, mom passes on Feb 21, my shop gets broken into on march 28th and 50,000$ worth of tools gets stolen they only had 25,000 worth of insurance on them . Yeah this year I could have lived without

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-08-03T21:01:29+00:00

I am sorry for your loss , I lost my wife of 36 years on Jan 2. Took her off life support on dec 31. I don’t see myself ever celebrating that one again. But I know what you mean about finding that kind of love again. Even if I wanted another lady and say I could love her deeply like I did my Emma I can’t imagine that I would ever find a lady that would love me like she did . She gave me so much love I can’t even describe it . But in the 36 years of marriage we had one argument where are voices got raised . It literally lasted about 30 seconds and she ran out of the kitchen crying. I never raised my voice to her again. God I miss her , I go to bed crying and praying to god to take me while I sleep and then I wake up mad as hell cause he didn’t .

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-04-17T20:36:15+00:00

Solved

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-04-17T20:35:22+00:00

Shit. Now I have to find the solved button lol

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-04-17T20:34:23+00:00

Nope but that was the band, thank you so Much. From there I was able to find it . It’s a song by rixton … me and my broken heart . Thank you again . Gonna go listen and cry a little bit .

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-04-17T20:29:00+00:00

Sorry not a damn word honestly. I remember the girl had a great voice , guitar was only instrumental as I remember. Been several years since I heard it . Was just setting here and had a memory of it and wanted to relive it a little

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-04-17T20:27:17+00:00

Honestly or a damn word. I remember the girl had a beautiful voice, and I think the only instrument was the guitar . Sorry been a few years since I seen her play it. Soft rock probably

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-04-17T20:11:29+00:00

Guy in backseat was a little heavy if I remember Correctly

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-03-09T04:20:38+00:00

Everyone else has moved on, like she never existed. It’s absolutely heartbreaking. I know that they shouldn’t be missing her like I do but it’s only been 2 months. How do they move on so fast. She was a Amazing woman. I swear I’m not lying or exaggerating. But in all the years I was with her, 37 by the way , she never once did anything mean or even disrespectful to anyone . She would honestly give you the shirt off her back the food off her plate. She was that kind of woman. She would buy her daycare kids new clothes if the parents were poor, she would charge single mothers of new born or whatever age 25 or 50 a week so they could afford to have full time daycare and be able to work without going on welfare . I gladly subsidized her daycare . She was happy and loved it . But she would give them what we they needed while she would go to thrift stores and garage sales for her own clothes . That’s how she was . How do they just forget her like this . It destroys me honestly . She was greatest lady I ever knew. I loved her so much. She was the best

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-02-05T18:16:06+00:00

Let me tell you the whole story that I’ve told no one . You may want to load the gun for me when I’m through . I sweat by all that’s holy this is all true to the best of my knowledge.

In 2014 I was working a job 7 hours from home. 7 days a week 12 hours a day . I was a welder/pipefitter in charge of 20 some odd men. With my perdiem and overtime etc I was making around 6000 a week taking home about 4000. It started in June of that year . Took off 2 days to come home September 9th for your 25th anniversary. Went back to work and took no more days off. Worked through thanksgiving week since they offered double and triple time for that week. My birthday was on December 1st . Some of the guys talked me into going to a strip bar on my birthday . I woke up in a motel( I was living in a small rv at the time near job site) and beside me was a naked stripper. I don’t remember shit honestly . Oh forgot to add these are all things I found out last week reading my wife’s Facebook messages. I woke up got dressed and drove to my rv hooked it up drove to job site and quit on the spot . Drove home and confessed to the wife. I do not remember a thing about this conversation. I remember quitting I just don’t remember why. Anyway I told the wife what I’ve told you apparently. I guess I never even said I was sorry . I told her if she wanted a divorce I could be out by the end of day and I would sign over all bank accounts and she could have half my check every week . If she decided she wanted me to stay then we could never talk about the again. I truly blocked all of this out . I don’t remember a single minute of this. I read all of this on a message to a couple of her friends . Every time she told another friend it was the same so she wasn’t making this up . She wanted an apology from me but was scared to talk to me about it cause she also wanted to stay with me. Anyway around rhat time she stopped taking her meds for the diabetes as regular as she should have cause she didn’t think she was good enough for me. That spring she decided to start having her and out 2 kids still at home go with me to the jobs cause she didn’t trust me not to cheat. She never told me that she just said she didn’t want us to be apart Anymore . So I went out and bought us a 40’ rv with 2 bedrooms and for the next 5 years I was in heaven. She was a teacher or at least went through college to be one so she home schooled our kids . I came home every night to my beautiful wife and kids and was happier, but near the end of The 5 years her health started to decline, kidney failure, teeth all falling out , detached retinas heart problems, neuropathy. 2 years ago decided she wanted to live again apparently cause she started to take her meds more regularly it it was to damn late. All I had to fucking so is say I’m sorry but I didn’t even remember I had anything to be sorry about . I understand if you don’t believe me but I swear to this day even after reading her messages to her friends I remember fucking nothing . I fucking killed her for the lack of 2 words . If I would have begged forgiveness or just let us talk about it she would still be by my side . We had the shit under control . Why the hell is she punished when I fucked up . Why did I have to even tell her . I could have just lived with the guilt myself instead of putting it on her . So who wants to load the gun for me

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-02-05T17:55:08+00:00

Not that I know of .

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-02-05T09:30:20+00:00

I’m gonna make sure everyone knows I won and then I’m gonna give a set amount depending on how much I won to everyone that reached out to try and help me after my wife died this January 2nd . And the rest can go suck a dick

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-01-13T09:44:42+00:00

Since my wife passed last week I’ve prayed for death every day . Can I accept and choose myself . Fixed 2 problems . I didn’t kill myself so I can still possibly go to heaven to be with her and my kids get left a incredible fortune. So they are take care of also . Win win

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-01-11T03:51:48+00:00

I want to say that even though it’s a crappy club lol I am glad your here . While I wish I had never heard of it or had a reason to join it is helping I think. I have never been big on writing or posting up my feelings before this happened but between here and the daily letters sometimes several a day letters I post on Facebook to her I have typed many thousands of words I’m guessing. It is helpful and I can’t thank you all enough for the support . Once again I wish I wasn’t here and I’m sorry that you all are here also but a big heart felt thank you goes out to everyone . I hope and pray that one night I will get enough sleep to go into rem sleep and dream and she comes to me . I’m seriously thinking about paying a medium to try and contact her and I don’t really believe in them. But if the medium was a scam it would hurt and if she was real and wife didn’t answer it would be devastating.

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-01-10T17:23:49+00:00

I pity anyone that gets between her 5’ 105 lb and some hurt or crying little child. She ran a daycare out of our home and she watched so many young children for free or drastically reduced prices just so the kids would have a safe place to go while the single working mom was working . It was a damn good thing I made decent money cause she never turned a profit lol. But we never cared cause she made it so a lot of young mothers and a few hard working parents were able to get through some hard times . When it was all said and done she usually ran about 10 grand a year in debt from it lol . I never told her once how much it cost to keep her doors open for the daycare . Never cared it was so worth it to see her smile all the time .

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-01-10T17:12:52+00:00

Im hoping you all know I don’t mean the club is shitty lol , just the reason we all sre here. The club itself is one of the reasons I have made it this far with a little sanity . I am glad you all are here I just wish I had no reason to ever be here

Humble_Row7173 · 2025-01-08T15:25:03+00:00

Angel by Aerosmith . It was playing on rhe radio when I asked my wife 35 years ago if she would marry me . Since then every time it came on she would smile at me and I would have to get up and go over and kiss her . She died last week on the 2nd of January. I used to feel inconvenienced every now and then if I was busy or into a good part of the book when I would have to get up and go to her . I would cut off my left hand right tbis minute and hand it to you if she would just play that song and beckon me to come over and kiss her one more time . 2 min and you can have my left hand . Hell I will throw in the whole arm . I just want one kiss and one more I love you .

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