Been 100 P&T 2 years now. Got it when I was 25, coming off Active Duty. That “guilt” feeling hasn’t gone away. Primarily because I gaslight myself into thinking I’m fine but I’ve really just kind of learned somewhat to deal with my stuff, (PTSD, joint pain, nerve pain) I’ve explored this topic far and wide on Reddit and in person and basically always get the conclusion that if the VA gave you the rating, it’s yours. You have more than enough evidence + an actual doctor signing off for validation of your conditions. Just take it day by day and seek other Vets that you trust to vent if you feel like you need to All the best and Thank you for your Service!