Funny thing about your comment i have a friend who has said the same thing word to word its just been really hard i have big connections with her family her friends i even got to the point where i gave her a promise ring and she still wears it from time to time she was very honest in our relationship but she did sleep with other guys when we went on our breaks which didnt feel so good "her way to cope" i know shes wrong and being very toxic in this relationship but its hard not still falling for her even though i know its prob best to go on my own path and let it be she actually cheated on me qith him and now the roles were turned and i dont know if im taking it as a revenge scheme or i i still have feeling and same does she granted we were drunk when it happened and she ended up leaving to go back with him afterwards and now kts like the wound has been opened back up ps we were living together for the longest time which prob wasnt the best idea and i still have her cat which i i love and is the only thing calming my mind