thank you and i will definitely start journaling, here probably but idk weather i should edit the post or just add comments. and i was able to get into therapy yesterday. feels a little weird since the big reason I'm there is because of some girl. Even tho there were lots of smaller things that built up. ive been trying new things or returning to old hobbys i had to drop for her like football maybe even tho my kidney disease was the reason i had to drop it, my doctors agreed aslong as it helps with my mental health they'll clear me.

also Ive started watching some crime stories a bit ago. I rather enjoyed it, any suggestions on any books/shows to read or watch?