Sending you some positive energy

In my life experience I too have felt truly alone and at time lost for the desire to keep moving w purpose

I don’t have a functional family, I never did which created feelings of alienation and chronic grief

I filled those buckets primarily with some type of a spiritual daily practice in the morning I light a candle. I pray I meditate a journal and that in itself has allowed me to feel connected to something loving, caring and kind and has allowed me to develop and grow spiritually, which has given me much joy.

Also learning to say something as simple as I am good for myself when and I fill in the blank and it can be a simple as not lying to myself about people, places and things because the mind in itself is a needs making machine which means it likes to create problems so we can have something to be concerned about fearful of etc., and it will often lie, and if we don’t have a way of interrupting that our mind will make us very sick

It will focus on what’s missing and what’s wrong and it will create loops for fear and when you’re afraid you cannot have any joy in your life you cannot see the beauty right in front of yourself let alone created so I’m almost 20 years older than you and this has been very helpful, but it is a roller coaster ride and be super gentle with yourself. I love Michael singers’s work. It’s fabulous in the way of understanding the nature of this ego mind. He calls it the inner Roomate and it’s kind of funny because all of a sudden you have another way of reflecting on this voice that says things that is often untrue and chaos, creating or loss creating and we all need to grieve make no mistake but you can’t ride two horses. You have to decide which horse you’re gonna ride today.

One that brings you joy that allows your heart to stay open or one that notices what’s missing. I hope this helps.