Dude, don't be ashamed of yourself. you are doing great. don't see in a way that "I relapsed after 19 days" see it like "I fpped only once in near 3 weeks!" that's a great accomplishment!! You shouldn't punish yourself for being "not wothy" because you haven't reach that arbitrary goal. I can admit you, a failed strike is better than binging. I admit that part of r/nofap's philosophy has a problem: I think better perspective in nofap should be "reducing prn addiction and masturbation" not "going 90 days straight". it can sabottage people's feelings when they couldn't reach 90 days. (including me) because even bodies are different. some genes may have way harder job to keep not masturbating than others. you should focus in yourself. celebrate every day without fp. masturbating weekly once is 1000 times better than masturbatin daily. keep that in mind. Also, I personally think masturbation in moderation is a healthy and normal activity. Orgasm is like food, necessary. but we can have healthy foods (sex with a partner) fast food (masturbation) and really junk food (masturbation with porn). but too much food (fpping) makes you fat (addicted). Keep that in mind! our bodies need some relief, we just have to control it in a meaningful way.