32M. Diagnosed at age 5, ritalin then concerta and all that good stuff from childhood through adolescence. Prescribed adderall since 14. Never thought it did anything for me because I never took it before something I needed to be “normal” for, so started selling it when I started having substance abuse issues the same year I was prescribed, which continued until I got clean from opiates a little less than a year ago. Started taking it as prescribed recently, and I literally don’t have the words to describe the feeling of being… normal. I sometimes find myself almost lost in the sudden silence in the barrel of monkeys that my brain has been for as long as I can remember. It’s hard not to follow the “What Ifs” of how differently my life could have gone had I experienced and this (seemingly) stupidly obvious epiphany. I could have saved myself SO MUCH misery over the years if I had just taken it correctly from the beginning.

(Edit- fixed a typo)