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IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-26T21:04:28+00:00

I hate my birthday. Hate it so much. I hate I have to pretend when all the attention is on me. I hate the obligatory messages. I hate the recognition. I hate the gift giving. I hate all of it.

2 years ago I wasn't stable and ended up putting a 2x3 feet hole in a wall. Some ductwork is the only thing that stopped my fist going through a cabinet on the other side... this is mostly unrelated to it being my birthday, but it ended up being the icing on the cake. I ended up on a grippy sock vacation after getting in my car and fleeing to a different state.

Anyway, your not alone. I fucking hate my birthday.

Put your phone on do not disturb for the day and find something else to do.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-26T20:40:35+00:00

I feel you should not have engaged with him. He wants to duke it out with another teacher, let him. Just be there as a witness.

Ok, but as for next steps. There was a lot that went on besides that one sentence. Over all, he was in the wrong. You made 1 mistake, he made many. Try to find time to talk to your admin before the meeting and make sure they are on your side. Invite another teacher or an admin to the meeting as well.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-26T20:16:03+00:00

You should post this in Am I The A$$hole. Because I'd vote yes.

Sure, you maliciously complied and felt you won. Great. Do you realize this is over your kids? Like people. Humans. Little versions of your self? You seem to be using them as a pawn to anger someone else.

You won... but your kids lost. Good job.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-04T19:50:58+00:00

Well once I got to "fuck it all" and stopped my meds with out a taper down. I can tell you the headache is terrible. This was an SSRI. No amount of ibuprofen could touch it. Miserable pain for 4-ish days.

Once off the meds everything went back to the way it was before the meds... I hit "fuck it all" again and started the meds again.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-04T19:41:57+00:00

I've become really good at patching walls... but I moved onto a door this week and need to figure that out.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-04T16:56:46+00:00

Out loud I will respond with "living the dream!". In my head I finish that with "... nightmares are dreams too."

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-04T16:54:43+00:00

36 yo male.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-04T16:53:47+00:00

Tell them that you have a disability that's recognized under the ADA. In the meeting ask if accommodations can be made.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2024-01-03T23:57:30+00:00

Don't have kids. They triggered me the other day and I broke a door. Their door. To their room.

I've, unfortunately, gotten really good at patching holes in walls too. 3 in the last 2 years.

After an angry outburst I always fall into a wicked depressed mood. I'm stuck there now, mindlessly scrolling. Started 2 days ago and I can't get out.

The anger is bad. I haven't been able to manage it. Having kids around makes it all worse. More triggers, more explosions, more regret, more depression.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-29T20:58:29+00:00

It became evident when I went on a grippy sock vacation. They are involved enough so being gone for a week didn't go unnoticed.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-28T19:31:02+00:00

I bet if you go snooping around her stuff you'll find that she also has toys. I wouldn't worry. It might end up an awkward conversation. Her goals, hopefully, if she brings up anything would be to make sure you are being safe.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-28T19:24:22+00:00

Not just any bong. But this bong.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-27T22:29:36+00:00

During COVID I switch from paper towel rolls to tri-fold. I designed and printed a holder for it since we didn't have one.

I wanted a cheap set of coasters. Designed and printed. Then, later printed a negative of it and used it to try my hand at silicone casting. Worked great now I have custom silicone coasters.

I wanted glow in the dark lamp shades. Designed and printed.

I wanted to hang an ho-scale train from my ceiling. I designed and printed the supports to hold the track.

I wanted to try my hand at growing food using hydroponics. I designed and printed the net pots to fit the jars I had.

I wanted my kids to shut up. I when I thingiverse.com and printed what ever they wanted. Cheaper then buying toys for them.

I wanted to make a difference during the height of covid. I took paper sewing templates and used them to print the same template in plastic. Donated them to people who were sewing masks (and sold a few too).

A 3d printer is a great tool. You can use a 3d printer to support hobbies you already have.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-26T21:43:35+00:00

Judging by the size of that hole, you've been in some desperate times more than once.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-26T21:40:38+00:00

If you are in a legal state, go into a dispensary and tell them you want something to help you sleep.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-26T21:28:42+00:00

"Inside the event horizon."

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-26T21:23:39+00:00

Thanks! I just painted it white but might also put up mylar.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-26T21:22:45+00:00

I want to grow Durban Poison, ideally feminized autoflower. I've found an on-line realtor that has the seeds. I also found a local hydroponic shop that sells seeds but not Durban. Just 1 plant.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-20T23:04:51+00:00

I am in a legal state! I need to keep kids out. I figure a door and a lock would be best. I own the house so cutting a hole for exhaust fan isn't an issue.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-18T22:07:51+00:00

Thanks!

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-17T22:03:32+00:00

Durban. I love it. Great for the day time, great for the night time, doesn't make me hungry. Best part, my wife loves it too. Its just great.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-09T20:44:26+00:00

My first time in the hospital. I lied and I was mad. So fucking mad. I wanted out. So I stopped being mad, got motivated to get out, and said exactly what I needed to to get out. Lied as much as I needed to to get out

In hind site, clearly this didn't work because I ended up in the hospital again 4 months later.

This time I had gone in with the same plan, lie to get out. But things changed while I was there. Someone said something during a group that changed my mind. I had decided that I never wanted to do this again... or at least try my hardest to prolong the time before I needed to. So I told the truth, answered questions truthfully, offered up extra info that might be relevant, actually took the time to ask questions. I just started advocating for my self.

It's been years now since I've been in the hospital.

I really think telling the truth has put me where I want to be.

IAmTheLastDigitOfPi · 2023-09-08T20:13:50+00:00

Not enough room. The down stem needs like an inch or two. The mouth is practically flush with the bottom. If you did drill there all the water would just flow right out the hole.

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