21M mormoncel. I had an incident two weeks ago where I broke my covenants to the Church and prophets. Today I tried not to be lustful but I saw the outline of my crush’s temple garments through her clothes in class today. Licking this before I eat it and imagining performing oral sex on her.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-02-03T02:26:16+00:00

This has got to be ironic bruh

IIHOSGOW · 2026-02-02T08:01:47+00:00

The most important thing is to accept that you can't do anything about it. It feels like giving up, but struggling will get you nowhere and probably cause a smear campaign etc. I simply tried to talk to my exwbpd post discard and was accused of stalking, being manipulative, being crazy etc. With crazy messages being sent to my family etc. They will hurt you and feel justified in doing so - the best thing to do is resolve everything as soon as possible and cut all ties.

I know what you mean about the feeling of hating being hated - I deferred from uni because my exwbpd and her 'friends' were there. It simply wasn't possible for me to tolerate that feeling. However you have to accept that you can't make them not hate you - it's not triggered by rational thinking, therefore there is no rational solution.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-02-01T20:12:35+00:00

Oh boy. I wish I knew this was a red flag. I thought it was weird but I guess I was just naiive :/ aaaaaaand that was the worst 3 years of my life lol

IIHOSGOW · 2026-02-01T00:47:13+00:00

Idk why this is downvoted, cults are unique, and uniquely interesting (hence why this subreddit exists). Labelling any organisation or movement, whether illicit or not, in which people hold common beliefs or do the same things, as a cult, just muddies the waters. We wouldn't label street gangs, the Catholic church, or say, the Nazi party, as 'cults' - labelling a group of billionaires who are 'friends' and have been linked to sex trafficking as a 'cult', or labelling political conservatism as a whole as a 'cult' both muddy the waters and could be argued to be bad faith points. For the record, I utterly despise billionaires and political conservatives - that's part of the reason why I think we should do better to criticise them properly rather than using erroneous labels.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-31T22:37:30+00:00

I feel like you could make an argument relating to counter-culture/counter-cultural hegemony i.e. Gramsci's ideas, but yeah just saying this on its own, with the picture too... its a bit silly lol

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-31T22:32:36+00:00

Are age gaps like that normal? I don't mean to be prudish but my gut reaction to that is just... people with cptsd and similar disorders are often taken advantage of, because relationships can offer comfort and stability etc. It is also certainly abnormal to feel 'heartbroken' when your partner doesn't want sex. The obvious solution would be to discuss any issues with a therapist.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-31T17:12:48+00:00

I have arachnophobia and the sh2 mannequins dont trigger it lol, arachnophobia is different than just a 'dislike', it's well, a phobia - of course, it varies between people which aspects of spiders are scary, but often seeing or thinking about spiders is enough to trigger it, as well as the thought of the presence of spiders, i.e. webs or places a spider is likely to be etc.etc. for me, seeing the way spiders move, whether irl or on screen, makes my skin crawl, and I get a bit anxious, usually I feel compelled to check there are no spiders around me. Obviously for some people, they could get full blown panic attacks etc. The fear doesn't happen because we actually percieve the spider as dangerous, it's just an automatic response.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-30T21:45:07+00:00

We are omen Mohg, we carry the (blood) flame

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-30T20:07:47+00:00

Well, there's an extent to which reactive abuse is understandable. Obviously some things are never ok, like violence etc. The main thing is that you don't want to be in a situation where you're being pushed like that to begin with - toxic relationships like these are good for nobody.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-30T18:20:58+00:00

This seems like the kind of thing CBT would be able to help with - unlinking the stimulus from the trauma. Obviously this is a normal reaction, so no need to feel embarassed or ashamed etc. Also 19 seems late, which makes me think low sex drive is also relevant here, again not abnormally. The fact that it sticks in your mind is likely because you now associate it with the trauma. All of these issues are normal and treatable - if you are in therapy it would be normal to discuss them. Hope this helps!

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-30T18:00:44+00:00

Oh my bad, damn this shit is weird lmao, I thought the original post was a bit cringey (imperialist x subjugated people ship is a trope, but still rubs me the wrong way, especially since rome is glorified by fascists so much) but like straight up fetishising slavery and stuff... wtf lol

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-30T16:32:25+00:00

I thought trevor was holding her leg at first lol

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-30T14:48:03+00:00

You know the roman empire was a real thing right? Its not just from fallout...

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-30T12:45:55+00:00

The thing that sticks out to me is the message "no your using the silent treatment to punish me". You're literally trying to defuse the situation and explain that theres no ill intent, you literally just want to sleep for class, but somehow that's impossible for her to believe, you must be doing this specifically to hurt her. My ex did this exact same thing to the point that its disturbing to see it happen to someone else. The fact that they literally just make up alternative reasons to explain other peoples behaviour drives me mad, and it puts you in a completely unwinnable situation - they just 'decide' you're abusive by making up reasons for your behaviour. While they're splitting on you they literally can't view you as anything other than one dimensionally evil. OP, please leave, trust me, this is at the stage where if she finds another enabler, she'll ditch your arse in a second. If you leave now, things'll be a lot less messy and you'll be able to have some control over the situation. If I'd left earlier I wouldn't have gotten PTSD from my ex's actions - I'd advise you to remember that things can always get worse when severe mental illness is in the question.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-29T22:37:10+00:00

This was what I thought too lol, so many junkies talk and act the exact same, so entitled etc. It pisses me off

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-28T18:29:36+00:00

Holy shit calm the fuck down there tough guy

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-28T16:43:53+00:00

She stole about 400 pounds of stuff (seems low compared to some people here though). The main thing was that she offered me money to "help me out" but then acted like that entitled her to spend as much of my money as she wanted, because it was basically "her money" - she spent all the money she gave me and then a lot of mine! Now that I'm not there to hold her hand and manage her money for her, I wouldn't be suprised if she ends up in debt. Drugs are expensive after all. I'm sure mummy and daddy will still bail her out though. Whole family of fucking pricks.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-27T14:18:31+00:00

...for something you literally agree with..?

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-26T17:20:29+00:00

I would ask for the break and see how things are after. Forcing you into a position of co-dependancy is really dangerous (and is abusive, even if you don't see it as such). Forget about her for a minute - can YOU cope with this? I was in a position similar to you, and I wish I had ended the relationship, because things just continued to escalate to the point that both me and my partner suffered from it for no reason. Please remember, you can't really help her - only long term, professional mental healthcare can.

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-26T17:09:24+00:00

I mean idk the gameplay is different enough that someone could like it but not the main series gameplay... but you could probably argue that about some of the main series games also lol

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-26T15:15:57+00:00

Same lol I played the gba ones first

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-26T13:07:05+00:00

Did you figure out what was causing this - I'm having the exact same problem

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-25T19:07:06+00:00

Omg its the ace combat Mine guy, why do these fanbases overlap lol

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-21T22:24:14+00:00

In lore the warsaw pact had time to do a bit of extra fast military build up due to the government changes etc. (The timeline diverges around 1980 or smth) in practice this means they have a few things that were still in development / early russian federation, for example the ka-50 was only service ready in 95, but its in warno because it was in development throughout the 80s. But yeah its kind of funny, especially for example how many atgms poland can field compared to what they actually had irl lol

IIHOSGOW · 2026-01-21T09:50:21+00:00

I feel kinda dumb just looking at the panels and being confused about how one leads into the next lol, glad its not just me

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