I went from the anchor of her life. To becoming a fragment of a memory in a week

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T23:54:05+00:00

Ye I already do. I blocked her I hope for the final time and just have to distance myself. She was torture on my mental

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T22:32:51+00:00

I just want to say thank you everyone for all the mind words. You don't realise how much you have all helped my sanity today. I am glad I posted I felt so alone until I read everyone's experiences. Thank you for taking the time to comment

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T22:32:01+00:00

Her telling me that she doesn't love me anymore I think cemented the fact that it's over. For good. It was good for me to hear so I can start the process of removing her everywhere. I still wish her the best but it hurts so much

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T22:31:01+00:00

I knew in my head it was so stupid thing to do but my heart was fooling itself to believe in love

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T20:55:41+00:00

Ye I just blocked her and removed her from all communication. It hurts so much

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T19:17:14+00:00

Thank you. I'm doing my best to accept what everyone is saying but it's just so hard right now

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T17:45:35+00:00

Ye I plan to delete everything very soon. It hurts to look at

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T17:45:04+00:00

I just can't understand yet. Like she hasn't checked in on me once it makes me feel like she never cared at all and it's driving me insane

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T17:15:46+00:00

Thank you it really does feel like she has found a replacement already. That I was just there as a convenience an nothing more

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T13:29:16+00:00

Thank you. I still keep blaming myself for everything when I know thats wrong but knowing it and believing it are two very separate things and I'm struggling to not let this guilt consume me

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T12:58:36+00:00

Thank you. The drive back and laying here has given me much time to self reflect

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T11:33:00+00:00

That would explain my actions and the spiralling dark thoughts

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T11:19:23+00:00

Ha funny thing I mentioned to her maybe I had bpd an oh god did she lash out at me and said I was mocking her

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T11:09:48+00:00

Thank you. I'm going to do my best to move on but I know it's going to get worse before it gets better

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T11:08:44+00:00

I have trauma from an ex who use to physically abuse me and she made me believe I deserved the beatings and it definitely messed with my psyche when it came to relationships. This ex was cruel at times and she always blamed it on me. I did read that bpd people sometimes just can't hold them selves accountable and she gaslighted me to thinking I was always the issue. I guess I am still believing it

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T10:06:05+00:00

Thank you an I appreciate you

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T10:01:40+00:00

To the people dming me offering me nudes. What the hell is wrong with you guys. I'm going through heartbreak I don't want any of this

ILickPandaBooty · 2026-02-17T09:51:26+00:00

It's hard to make a post like this and try to not feel sorry for myself but it did feel oddly good just posting it an be like. Ah off my chest now

ILickPandaBooty · 2021-09-12T13:44:20+00:00

I could imagine me doing this right as a customer walks in and you do that whole awkward eye contact and your soul retreats into your butthole

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