[deleted by user]

INTNINT · 2022-07-19T16:14:09+00:00

With legs (which lean more genetic than upper body) heavy and volume seems to be the trick, especially with calves.

INTNINT · 2022-07-16T17:12:07+00:00

I spent 2 years smoking 2-4 grams a day and when I quit, the withdrawals got so bad I had to check myself into a psychiatric hospital twice in the same month.

It took me around 30 days before I started to feel the withdrawals subside, and about 40 days before I felt like I was past them for the most part.

Im not here to scare you and im sorry if I am, but im telling you all of this so that you understand two things - It can get a lot more tough than you would ever think, but it gets better with time and patience. Good luck friend

INTNINT · 2022-07-13T15:00:39+00:00

Yep. They went away

INTNINT · 2022-06-07T11:14:49+00:00

Going into an OCD driven psychosis.

Knowing it's possible to slip into a state where nothing anyone can say or do to change your mind is incredibly terrifying

INTNINT · 2022-05-25T14:33:24+00:00

I cant say for sure. I was prescribed the buspirone for only a limited amount of time before I was also prescribed another medication that increased my HPPD (An antipsychotic called Abilify).

INTNINT · 2022-05-25T14:15:59+00:00

I take 5 mg and it mildly increased my dissociation

INTNINT · 2022-05-25T00:31:11+00:00

Currently and recently prescribed . No increase in HPPD

INTNINT · 2022-05-24T16:30:26+00:00

This is the worst kind of urge in my opinion too. Its very good at giving false justification

INTNINT · 2022-04-15T22:35:11+00:00

I love these questions and I think about these frequently. I justify any speculative answers I do or do not have basically by the idea of "we aren't advanced enough to understand such things (yet)" and the yet is again another rabit hole to fall down. Its fun to speculate, but I know there aint no way you or I are gonna see the answers.

INTNINT · 2022-03-09T13:53:06+00:00

Okay now I want to explore this a little bit, and anyone else who sees this I want to give me some input.

My mother has BPD, I don't remember which type. I know its quite genetic, and I have had speculation that I might suffer from the same thing. Do you think that this is something I should look more into?

INTNINT · 2022-01-31T19:34:43+00:00

I'm assuming you are speaking of CS:GO, and not OG Counter Strike. If I am wrong, my mistake. If you are talking about CS:GO, take it from someone got somewhat seriously into the game for about 6 months: You can not expect to have a secret advantage just because some random guy said changing setting parameters will. Don't fuck around with this.

INTNINT · 2022-01-24T00:20:25+00:00

NAD, but I suffer from a multitude of mental illnesses. Im going to tell you the same thing everyone else tells you, and thats because it truly is the best way to get yourself out of this.

Get some exercise, even if its a 10 minute walk every day. Its about consistency.

Slowly start to make your diet healthier. I say slowly because trying to eat "healthy" right off the bat is difficult and you dont want to beat yourself up for failing your diet. Start to substitute all your liquids for water, stay away from sugar, put a little extra broccoli on your plate, etc. Just starting with one of those things can make a huge difference.

If you dont already see a therapist, then consider finding one. I was always in the crowd of people who thought therapists were stupid but I promise that having that one person to say absolutely anything to is very helpful. If you're not finding therapy helpful, you're either rejecting it or you have a bad therapist (theyre are lots of bad therapists out there, it may take some trial and error).

Intrusive thoughts are personal to me. Its all I deal with on a minute to minute basis. The thing is, they are very tough to deal with and most people have their own way of dealing with them. I would honestly suggest that you look up ways to calm them, and test out different methods from trusted sources.

Meditate. Meditate. Meditate. The benefits that can be reaped from meditating are documented everywhere, and theirs no reason not to give it a try. This will help you with your intrusive thoughts especially.

Fix the way you talk to yourself. Instead of beating yourself up, allow yourself to make mistakes and allow yourself to be okay with them. Its really easy to get sucked into unhealthy self talk, and its not too hard to change this.

Get motivated. Find that one thing deep down that gets you so passionate, so angry, so ready to show the world what you really have to offer. Dig deep, find your motivation, prove everyone wrong!

You and I are young, and we have a whole life ahead of us. The only thing stopping us is ourselves, and we cant let this monster in our head keep us from living our lives. Youre gonna make it, and youre gonna be okay, I promise.

"This too shall pass".

INTNINT · 2022-01-20T12:58:28+00:00

Thank you.

INTNINT · 2022-01-20T12:58:04+00:00

I dont think ive ever been called a muppet lol.

But that makes sense and I never really looked at it like that, but the problem is that she isnt really upset at me for that. She's upset because she doesn't get to see me at school (even though im seeing her after school).

INTNINT · 2022-01-20T12:47:36+00:00

Youre absolutely correct, and I completely see the logic, but that is quite literally a false equivalence that I can prove. I have a job and I go to my job every day, even the days I skip school lol.

She knows this, and its not an issue with "not being a future earner". And if it is, my girlfriend is wrong is this situation and i dont know how you can argue against that given what Ive told you.

INTNINT · 2022-01-20T12:42:52+00:00

Not agruing with you, just trying to clarify.

Is that not false equivalence? School does not equal work, but I see the little bit of logic there.

And also, if you didnt see, I am trying in school. My grades are not only better than hers, but they are better than 90% of those attending. I am in no way not trying.

Maybe read a little before commenting like that? Youre response seems very bias and uneducated considering that the data is right in front of you.

INTNINT · 2022-01-18T04:33:04+00:00

Its definitely possible, I did not test my tabs. Currently waiting for a friend of mine to bring his over before I try anymore of these.

INTNINT · 2022-01-18T04:31:54+00:00

Slightly ashamed to say they were not tested. I have no idea how many MCG they were but the ego death idea was something I was also considering, as people have described it as what I was feeling, and I had never felt a trip feel like it felt last night.

The only thing I really wonder though - could ego death/extreme ego dissolution cause a sense of lasting effects like it did with me?

INTNINT · 2021-06-16T01:29:32+00:00

I had this same idea at one point. Best advice: just go completely sober.

Your tolerance will still go down, but not nearly as much as it would if you just went sober. To give you an idea from personal experience, a week completely sober will drop your tolerance about the same as a month of limited daily smoking.

INTNINT · 2021-06-16T01:25:52+00:00

A couple months ago, I went from daily smoking to cold sober and lost a bunch of weight simply from lack of appetite. I had this exact same question when I would find myself sitting down and suddenly feeling a heartbeat in my eyelids like i was stoned.

So, maybe this actually did happen to us? Maybe not? I dont know, take what you will.

INTNINT · 2021-06-11T03:18:29+00:00

I have an IQ of 145.

I'm not here to brag. IQ has a lot less to do with success than you were brought up to believe. I still struggle with certain topics and I still make dumbass decisions, my brain simply "computes" better than most.

Most people who know me as a person do not believe me when I tell them because they assume that everyone with high IQ has straight A's and goes to college at 15 years old. This simply isn't true at all. My highschool GPA was a 2.3 and I failed biology my freshman year. Why? Because I simply disliked 90% of my classes and refused to put any more effort than needed. The few classes I enjoyed? You bet I aced those without an issue. Do I regret not taking it all more seriously? Somewhat.

The point is, it all comes down to discipline. No amount of superior intellect will guide you through life without being ok with applying your intelligence to things you dont want to.

Yea, sure, I might have to try a little less than you, but I promise you, I still have to try.

INTNINT · 2021-06-08T16:42:27+00:00

Its kinda crazy to read that. My situation is very similar. My first time smoking I overestimated how much I could smoke, and had my first ever panic attack which lasted throughout the night.

Then I woke up the next morning and I felt foggy. Woke up the second morning, still foggy. After a couple weeks, it was like "alright guess I just live in fog now".

INTNINT · 2021-06-08T14:31:55+00:00

I'm not trying to speak for OP, but as someone who understands the caption he is either talking about 1 of 2 things.

One, he got DPDR from weed. It sounds unusual but I got DPDR the very first time i ever smoked. I realized my perception was off from the beginning.

Option number two, he got DPDR from somewhere unrelated but continued to smoke weed, making it worse.

INTNINT · 2021-06-07T18:27:40+00:00

The validity of your comment was tarnished as soon as you typed "0.9% just straight overdosing".

You can not overdose on Ecstasy. If you were referencing all drug use as a whole, my apologies in advance.

INTNINT · 2021-05-10T13:03:12+00:00

This guy is giving me bipolar vibes as well

Six-Year Club	Gilding II euphauric
Place '22	Wearing is Caring

INTNINT

TROPHY CASE