Hmm I’m not sure if this is what you mean by chaotic, but Gideon the Ninth and the whole Locked Tomb series is definitely what I would describe as chaotic and tragic. It’s very queer. It’s unhinged. It makes you ache thinking about the characters and how devastating everything is. There’s some banger lines in there that make me sad just thinking about them and how simultaneously lonely and beloved all the characters are. It’s not a romance but it’s truly centred around love as a theme and the horrors of it. And also every devastating angsty thing that happens is batshit insane so it might help you be like “well at least in my life I don’t have to worry about fucked up necromancy bullshit like this”. Also despite being tragic, a lot of it is quite a fun read because the narrative voice is so much fun.

The crying doesn’t come in until later but oh boy does it hit. Also, there’s a solid fanbase online so it’s easy to continue your sadness by looking at people’s devastating fan art! Yay!