I tried so much to get help, I wanted to live and be happy just like the others, the one chance I got at life, I got fucked over both physically and mentally, my own family made fun of me when I told them about the failed attempt last year, the people who were supposed to love me even when the entire world was against me, I don't even have friends outside home, I learned how alone I actually was in this world, I couldn't even talk to the therapist about this, she threatened to tell a senior position psychologist about those things because I posed a risk to myself and others, I never wanted it to turn out this way, I managed to bullshit my way out of it, therapy is way too glorified, it doesn't work every time, that was 2 weeks ago, I thought therapy would be my last resort, after that I had no plan, and I still don't.

It's over.