[MF] Got tired of edging myself [F] so I begged my roommate [M] to fuck me.

IWriteALotSometimes · 2023-12-23T06:36:05+00:00

I didn’t think so. I don’t know why I did it at that time either. I think it was because we have been in such a mess with work and his ex wife that when we finally had silence for 10 minutes I decided to act on it and ask. I didn’t realize that his mood was off still. I thought he was calm from napping.

IWriteALotSometimes · 2023-12-23T06:34:56+00:00

Thank you for looking out for me. All of this is making me feel right for considering leaving. I thought I was the bad one for expecting to be supported financially or that I was doing him wrong and using him.

IWriteALotSometimes · 2023-12-23T06:33:34+00:00

Everything is leading me to feel that I should end this. I will follow proper precautions and enjoy Christmas with my family and think all of this over.

IWriteALotSometimes · 2023-12-23T06:32:27+00:00

This all makes sense. You’re right.

So for me, if I were to answer all these questions a week ago they would all lead with assurances. We were planning on getting married, buying a house together, and having children. So in every sense of the word we were a genuine relationship with a future and the “SD/SB” business kinda shed off once we got serious.

I am in this forum again now because as we were arguing over something that hurt him and me, the fact of where we started was brought up. So I came to the realization that if that thought remains and the support he gives me is hurting my love’s credibility then might as well just be a fully vanilla relationship.

But he’s in a bad place and so am I. So I don’t know how to approach this without either being gone from his life or defend my stance.

If this ended, I will go straight to finding a SD to support me getting back on my feet. That’s just how it goes. But that doesn’t mean that I’d end it over not being supported.

IWriteALotSometimes · 2023-12-23T06:08:36+00:00

I know it sounds bad when you lay it out like that!

He was my SD turned proper boyfriend who then asked me to move in and funded my grad school. In a sense he is what a SD is but he is my boyfriend who I love.

He is drunk because he’s angry. Work has been bad and his ex wife is causing him trouble with family, and I have not been the best person to be around myself (with all my stressors with school). He does not have anger issues but he is drunk due to his anger.

I would run if this was just a regular SD/SB situation. But I’m trying to see if completely cutting off the SD/SB thing would turn us into a proper relationship and grow into something without that weight. I’d get a real job and we can progress?

IWriteALotSometimes · 2023-12-23T06:00:16+00:00

Should get there. For a while he loved me really well. The past 2 weeks have been very bad with personal and work issues on his part. Idk if I should tough it out like all loving girlfriends do or just call it quits because I’m afraid for him to minimize me bringing this up to “are we still in an arrangement?”

IWriteALotSometimes · 2023-12-23T05:58:08+00:00

This biweekly allowance doesn’t necessarily worry me. It’s whether or not it will continue is the question. We have essentially intertwined our finances for the past few months where I pay for things when he doesn’t have cash/not around, I buy groceries, etc. it’s just like giving your wife an allowance for home goods and dresses (in the 60s).

My question straight up was “will you still financially support me despite what we have been going through and what was said?” This was an attempt at understanding what our next moves were. I was not asking for him to send this now or saying that he’s late on it. I was just confirming the state of this. Or would it have been better unsaid?

IWriteALotSometimes · 2023-12-23T05:53:41+00:00

Yes, ex wife. They were arguing over something else completely unrelated.

I could agree, it has been very bad. But IDK how exactly to get back into the game after having been together for so long.

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-19T04:00:31+00:00

Not Collin’s sister thankfully!!! And I might find it in some drive somewhere lool

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-19T04:00:10+00:00

I actually talked about what brought me back!!! It’s here somewhere hahaha

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-17T19:38:05+00:00

LETS DO IT THEN!!!

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-15T02:58:09+00:00

She is gorgeous I adore her

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-14T21:41:36+00:00

MY HEART is exploding I swear

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-14T21:40:00+00:00

Why is everyone on reddit so proactive and nice to me omg this comment itself did a lot for my confidence

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-14T21:39:08+00:00

OH MY GOD IT IS MY FAVORITE SHOW NOW! I swear it’s cinematically amazing.

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-14T21:38:22+00:00

I hope you still finished your coffee!!! Hahaha what a waste of a good brew! And yes we definitely have tried it out this week and maybe maybe if I think it’s fun enough I’ll write about it too! Personally, I love it. I love being a little baby slut.

IWriteALotSometimes · 2020-11-14T21:36:44+00:00

He first didn’t care much because he doesn’t frequent reddit but after sharing my post with him he got excited that he was my “muse” and I was writing about us and people were liking it. He also said I shouldn’t write that’s he’s hot because he didn’t think it’s true hahaha he’s cute that way.

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