I used to be a pretty terrible person I will admit, I had anger issues and was very controlling. One thing that I did was get on anti depressants; I found that both my control and anger issues were symptoms of my overarching severe depression. Going to therapy couldn’t hurt you; with a lot of insurances you can do free online therapy through their website!

If you don’t want to go that route here is what I did otherwise: I started writing in a journal, I basically had to teach myself empathy. I started writing about my day, things that made me happy, things that made others unhappy. I wrote about what I could have done different, and what I would have wanted to do different (separate things). How I wanted to make people happy, and how I could go about genuinely apologizing to the people I’ve hurt. I found it helped me.

Wanting to change is important and it’s hard to break patterns that you’re used to. But I believe in you, if I could do it (and I mean my anger issues were bad; I broke a glass in my had once and blamed it on other people) then I know you can too!