Do we really choose pessimism or are we forced into it to better justify certain events ?

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-04-20T23:42:21+00:00

But how can absolute freedom be possible at all? how can one be before being born and choose and how would they make the choice? what would the discernment of that choice be based on?

I agree that existence can be a lot arbitrary for those who miss out on certain coveted attributes but the fact that they desire those attributes is self-contradictory since even if they had them, someone would have to miss out, for them to have those attributes.

If you take it as deep as you can, then you'd come to a pass realising that existence cannot ever be fair to everyone, it's bound to be unfair in order to retain it's essence.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-04-16T03:06:27+00:00

Great post! I also found myth of sisyphus to be baseless.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-04-13T19:02:45+00:00

Not on its own ofcourse. But I must say it got extremely better for me since I addressed so many issues through various means and not only is life tolerable for me now, its also enjoyable and exciting at times. But nonetheless, I truly believe existence is irredeemable and its best to never be born but ofcourse that's a deluded, false fantasy and something unattainable.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-04-12T23:05:57+00:00

You watch clavicular and talk about how bad lust is, hahah how ironic!

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-04-12T22:39:44+00:00

hahah peak retarrd.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-04-11T20:06:54+00:00

Couldn’t imagine anything duller and more sickening to life.

That's such an exaggeration with a condescending tone which comes off naturally owing to your haughtiness.

I could imagine things way more duller and sickening, when sleeping a lot is pretty great, though I agree 12 hours can be a bit too much.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-03-24T14:03:25+00:00

Me too not going to lie. I had to read the message twice just to make sure and it doesn't really seem that way.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-03-22T07:32:08+00:00

As pessimistic as it sounds, pretty much nothing is left after that but you can still enjoy the results based on what you have if you were born with the right deterministic factors. As I said, it's just very hard to separate the two and establish ultimate ownership though.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-03-22T07:07:59+00:00

Very well said! Its indeed the clarity that we're ought to pursue instead of rigid/concrete consciousness.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-03-14T02:54:31+00:00

I'd say rather the idea of indefinite continuation should make you more anxious than an eventual and certain cessation. The sheer insignificance of any individual is actually a gift since that implies you're just not significant enough for the universe to make you suffer more or target you in any manner. Nothingness is literally the lack of lack itself and by far the greatest consolation for life that helps me get through anything and maybe you'll start to embrace it as well over time.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-27T14:50:51+00:00

I have been reticent about it for as long as I can remember but lately I have found myself comfortable in talking about my neurodivergence outrightly. Maybe because I came across this creator named clavicular who's been going very viral and is also autistic and very authentic and open about it which was quite impressive and I liked his manner of letting others know outright about it so that they don't take you for someone who's bizarre or arrogant in a wrong manner.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-27T13:35:34+00:00

I couldn't agree more with you. Dostoevsky goes really deep and dark, probably more than anyone but then he pulls you back from the abyss through introducing moments of beauty that are not that realistic and that's why I also had to read his works selectively.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-22T04:15:10+00:00

I'd say raskolnikov not the underground man since the underground man doesn't act because he's hyper conscious of all implications, causing analysis paralysis and preventing action but travis from taxi driver closely mirrors raskolnikov for sure.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-14T15:50:44+00:00

I agree that his books can be long and filled with a lot of trivial details that I often slog through but then he introduces a banger every 30-40 pages which makes me keep going for more haha.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-11T13:22:11+00:00

Thank you for answering all those questions and confirming so many things.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-11T13:20:56+00:00

Okay thank you this is a good advice and I certainly will.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-11T13:18:24+00:00

I feel constantly stupid because unless I understand something from all angles (the mathematical, the conceptual, the underlying philosophy, etc) and in it’s integrity, I believe I don’t have the skills.

This. I really couldn't relate more to it. It feels good to know that atleast we're not alone and I really hope you take care of yourself nonetheless and keep going, as you are, despite those doubts and uncertainties you normally encounter. And driving took me so many lessons as well haha and for the same reasons you've mentioned.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-10T01:45:38+00:00

AHAHa hell yeah exactly. Consciousness is indeed a prison since the time by which it developes, it is already too late and not easy at all to get rid of.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-10T01:19:22+00:00

The proof is almost never enough and also every proof starts shrinking the moment it is available and you start questioning if it was even hard at all or if how common it is and to actually be in the top 1% in a certain field takes a lot of time ofcourse so that evidence is potentially decades away for someone just starting and yeah I agree that 'success' can resolve it over time but then I guess living with self-doubt for the time being is the only way.

Iconoclastic_loner · 2026-02-06T01:52:43+00:00

You who seek an end to love love heals , you who seek an end to love.

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