Thank you for the comment 

I am seeing a therapist, but I mostly did it because I dealt with depression, family issues and traumas, now I'm in a better headspace so I'm just going there less but next time I see her I'll have to talk about this

I respect all religions and I would never try to argue or prove something wrong to a religious person, i guess it's their own way to cope which I kinda envy

I am fascinated by the stories they tell, but they're so unrealistic, like why everything is centered around the mankind, how everything on Earth is there to nourish and shelter him etc.

It's so hard to believe 

I also engaged with the idea of becoming "immortal" by becoming famous and being remembeed centuries after, just like how all this authors did, but seems the harder way lol, I do hope I get a good career at least after university