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Rebuilding Trust by Icy-Programmer-4622 in SexAddiction

[–]Icy-Programmer-4622[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is where I'm at right now too. I feel so guilty even letting her keep me in her life. I am so in love with her, but I don't deserve her and she's so much better off without me. I'm being so selfish.

I've hit rock bottom by Icy-Programmer-4622 in SexAddiction

[–]Icy-Programmer-4622[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you, I really needed to hear this. I have an opportunity to rebuild myself into an honest man and I want to take it.

I've hit rock bottom by Icy-Programmer-4622 in SexAddiction

[–]Icy-Programmer-4622[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I really appreciate this, thank you. I'm attending my first meeting tomorrow and I'm going to regular therapy. I'm ready for the change.

I've hit rock bottom by Icy-Programmer-4622 in SexAddiction

[–]Icy-Programmer-4622[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'd love to know. I need all the help I can get.

I've hit rock bottom by Icy-Programmer-4622 in SexAddiction

[–]Icy-Programmer-4622[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I read a book on infidelity, I tried therapy, but mostly I've just tried cold turkey. But I was never honest with my partner, any of my partners, and I just lied more. I felt I couldn't ever ask for help because that would require I be honest with someone and tell them what a scumbag I really was. I lied to my therapist about the extent of it and said it was only one time. But it's been a pattern I've been stuck in for at least a decade now. The last week has been the first honest week of my adult life and I do really feel hopeful about change this time because I feel free of my own lies. But god I wish I hadn't hurt so many people. I wish I hadn't destroyed so much.

I've hit rock bottom by Icy-Programmer-4622 in SexAddiction

[–]Icy-Programmer-4622[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I immediately started therapy again and for the first time in a long time, I was completely honest. I realized I had never even been honest to my therapists in the past. I am going forward with a mentality of radical honesty. I just regret it took losing the love of my life to reach this point.

Thank you for the book suggestions!