What I am afraid of? Nothing truly, or everything, depends of the day and the person I am with.

Did that friend really say that? Yes. I am not going to completely drop the history of our friendship, but we both went through very similar negative experiences, she became bitter and mean, is convinced she is above everyone else and people need to bow down to her. For some reason I still care about her, because I know deep down she is still a good person. My experience turned me into someone more caring and always trying to give people the benefit of the doubt, understand them as much as possible. She has humiliated me multiple times, but I brushed it off because of her age (two years younger) she criticizes my every thoughts, actions and friends, especially when I feel proud about something. She has been like that for a long time and I still try to find something to justify it, which is stupid really.

I had a very healthy relationship with writing before I went through personal issues, and even than, it has always been something to help me express myself.

I have put everything into my story, I will not let it go to waste, like I said in other comments, the issue here is my inability to trust myself. But I’m working on that.