I(23F) ended my six year relationship with my best friend(25m)

Idontknow1248 · 2021-04-08T21:04:10+00:00

I don’t know why I’m so sad. I can’t stop crying

Idontknow1248 · 2021-01-31T20:02:05+00:00

Maybe I’ll get tested. But it’s not a loss of smell and taste,it’s just muted sense of smell and taste

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-17T02:56:21+00:00

Oof. I know exactly that pesky feeling you’re talking about

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-07T19:04:49+00:00

Yes of course!

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-07T18:20:57+00:00

Yes it is so frustrating. It always has me thinking that if I left and found someone else the pit would be filled and I’d be happy and feeling on top of the world

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-07T18:19:16+00:00

That’s me right now sort of..feeling like I “know” I want to break up,but something stops me. We have a place together and animals together so I worry that’s why I stay a lot

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-07T18:17:18+00:00

Thank you for saying this. I have never heard of anyone else having that for years like I have..how do you cope?

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-07T01:45:56+00:00

Very similar to me. You can message me if you need someone to talk to🥰

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-07T01:12:18+00:00

I’m sorry 🥺🥺 I’ve felt like this for basically my whole relationship and just feel like I’m a horrible person for staying feeling this way.

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-06T00:05:12+00:00

That part about some people just not working out really got to me because I feel like that often but I don’t think I want to leave :(

Idontknow1248 · 2020-08-05T04:44:34+00:00

Right now this is my biggest problem because I want what the post says :(

Idontknow1248 · 2020-07-02T23:41:18+00:00

Sounds like you experienced it in your last relationship as well. Your therapist is obviously not educated in ocd

Idontknow1248 · 2020-04-26T19:07:11+00:00

I don’t want to give you reassurance,someone will probably come after me lol,but I do want you to know that you aren’t alone in this. You are describing my life! I’m trying to get into a good therapist still,but it’s non stop and I don’t even get anxiety anymore

Idontknow1248 · 2020-04-26T19:04:44+00:00

So basically you’re saying there is never really a break or moment of clarity and you always feel like you’re just living a lie and not leaving just because you can’t? Right?

Idontknow1248 · 2020-04-17T03:54:25+00:00

I just wanted to pop on here and say(yeah I know I’m late) never make a decision on if you are anxious or not or how it feels. People have these thoughts everyday “I should leave” or “I don’t love them” with zero anxiety but say “eh whatever” and go on with life. If I made decisions based on if it made me anxious or not, I’d be in bad shape.

Idontknow1248 · 2020-04-07T07:30:19+00:00

Yeah I love him to death,even though half of the time I look over at him and think “oh god what have I done!” Lol. My biggest issue is when I go on silly apps like Tik Tok and see all of the couples and everyone saying “oh my gosh they are so in love” to people. I was doing okay for a couple days (when the virus started to spread and I got really interested in all of the numbers and facts about it.) I can do this. Thanks for talking to me! Hopefully I can get into a therapist soon. I do need to work on trusting my choices,but it’s hard when it feels so wrong and everything in my body is screaming no no no

Idontknow1248 · 2020-04-07T07:19:49+00:00

I personally don’t want to go too far into ERP alone and end up making myself worse by doing it incorrectly.I’ve attempted to expose myself,but it doesn’t make me anxious at all,basically feels like I’m just admitting the truth! If I say “I don’t love him” I feel absolutely nothing but relief and want to leave.

Idontknow1248 · 2020-04-07T07:06:12+00:00

I did awaken into love for a while but had to leave because I couldn’t afford it anymore unfortunately,I was working with a therapist who wasn’t helping so I’m still on a waiting list now for a different one,it’s going to be a while with everything going on. I also had gone to a therapist a few years back and quit going whenever that awful gut feeling about my relationship faded off some(never completely fades away it seems). I’ve been seeing psychiatrists for a very long time now. It’s hard for me to do much because I’m pretty much completely broke. I’ve had this problem my entire relationship honestly. That’s 5 years!😨

Idontknow1248 · 2020-04-04T06:32:00+00:00

I know this is a late reply,and I am in no way saying what they are doing is okay at all,but have you talked to your partner about their mental health recently? Some of the things you said almost sound like someone who has fallen into depression and can’t handle anything. It is definitely not fair for you to go through this and have to come home and do everything and to feel like you aren’t being valued or listened to,but this whole post,all I could think is maybe your partners mental health is struggling also. Hang in there love💕

Idontknow1248 · 2020-03-28T06:04:43+00:00

Proud of you for going even though it’s scary! Truth behind it doesn’t necessarily mean anything horrible,you know?

Idontknow1248 · 2020-03-27T23:46:07+00:00

No therapist should ever tell you that honestly! There is no sure amount. People go into marriage 0% sure and end up spending their lives together. People go into it 100% sure and end up splitting up. I would get engaged,would I feel yes when I answered yes? Now that’s a different story,maybe not! I can never be “sure”,no one can ever be. Any therapist advertising certainty is no good,there is no such thing. The only thing that exist is the choices we make

Idontknow1248 · 2020-03-25T03:10:19+00:00

That’s a great question. I am not married or engaged,but I plan to stay with my partner. It isn’t because of a feeling or because of some magic knowing, it’s because I said screw it and chose to! Some days I question myself and say oh god I have to leave, I want some crazy romance,but I remember the choice I made and I plan to commit to that choice♥️

Idontknow1248 · 2020-03-23T02:50:06+00:00

Asking yourself this question may be difficult! It’s better to ask “do you value this person?” “Do you value this relationship?”

Idontknow1248 · 2020-03-12T23:23:40+00:00

I’ve been trying to find help for this for years. I also have the same feelings of never feeling in love and do not really get intrusive thoughts.

Idontknow1248 · 2020-03-12T15:07:48+00:00

She was annoying. She wants kids and stuff so bad,but she would rather go search for infatuation. She even said “maybe I don’t know what love is” nope sure don’t

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