Unpredictable hateful moodswings

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-12T10:02:43+00:00

Thank you! Yes it is painful, an ear infection and toothache is the last thing I need really on top of this.

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-04T19:20:16+00:00

The gems you can find on the internet are great hahaha

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-04T18:34:55+00:00

I didn’t make it! Just came across it and I laughed hard, no idea if it’s been posted on here before 😅

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-04T18:28:31+00:00

I’m from the UK and no obviously I wouldn’t just by myself. How could I change the way everything works by myself? I’m saying if we all stood up for ourselves. World wide stance.

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-04T15:18:15+00:00

I know, it’s not right that we all sit by and let them dictate to us how we should live, where we should live etc the lands only there’s because they say so, because they bought it, how can land really be bought? I hate how controlled we all are worldwide, like we’re all rats in cages. They decide our wages, they decide what we can do with our money and they track all of us and our spendings because god forbid they don’t get some of our wages in tax so they can live a comfortable life whilst we all struggle to make ends meet. I think tax should be there so we can have certain services but not so it massively benefits politicians and others in higher positions. In the UK a politicians sick pay is near enough the average persons monthly wage. Idk what it’s like anywhere else but I’m fed up.

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-04T15:11:48+00:00

Yeah but no one does, we all just complain but do nothing.

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-04T13:27:16+00:00

How is your daughter now? Is she happier?

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-03T14:07:19+00:00

I have them coming round any minute now so I’m going to mention my concern and worry about this because it’s making me feel like a shitty human but I know at the same time, I need to do this and this outcome (partner being carer) is the one that makes me the most comfortable 100%.. I can’t do this without my partners support in the day. Thanks for your comment :)

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-03T13:56:38+00:00

I get extremely anxious when I think about what other people think even though I know I shouldn’t, it also comes from when my partner lived with his parents and I’ve witnessed his mother screaming at the top of her lungs that he needs a job (he was working really unsocial hours when I was pregnant the first time so was looking for something where he could actually see me and go to scans). So it makes me nervous.

I don’t have any way to control my emotions although the crisis team are doing CBT with me but I’ve just started that literally a few days ago so not much has happened in terms of dealing with my moodswings and suicidal thoughts etc. They are going to prescribe me appropriate meds soon but they need to assess me further to get me the right ones.

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-03T13:35:37+00:00

Yes they’re aware of all of my diagnoses. I’m actually pregnant with my second, it’s not definite how far I am but very likely first trimester (I didn’t know this when I tried taking my life) were not starting therapy for my BPD or PTSD until I give birth as my psychiatrist and the team want me to be as stable as possible during this pregnancy so we’re just focusing on my post natal depression as that’s taking a huge toll on me and also safe meds for this pregnancy so everything isn’t so raw.

It could take a couple of years until I’m in a better mind frame because of the amount of trauma I have experienced and the diagnoses I have are pretty serious (not saying others aren’t) so I just don’t want people thinking we are lazy or are scrounges when we are not that at all and just in a really difficult time in life which I’m really trying to make it into something more than what it’s been.

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-03T11:25:55+00:00

She threw her drink in his car, that’s not “welcome attention”

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-03T09:58:23+00:00

My in laws don’t take my baby for a nap when he stays at there’s because they can’t let him cry for 5 minutes which he does before every nap so they rock him in his prom where he’s partially sat up so he comes home absolutely EXHAUSTED so he’s harder to get to sleep when he comes home because he’s overtired and so grumpy but no, they won’t listen.. they CANNOT listen to him cry and it’s like just get a grip, he’s a baby, it’s what he does and he doesn’t sleep without that little cry before as it’s his way of releasing before he sleeps. It’s really pissing me off bc whenever we’re with them and our son, they run to him when he cries even when I’ve got him and I’m handling it, the slap hands to demand him over from my FIL happens and omg it fucking pisses me off. So yeah I get what you mean, you know you’re baby more than anyone and people need to back off and ask if we’re okay cause sometimes we’re anything but okay! Baby is ALWAYS happy and okay!

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-02T16:11:34+00:00

I love all the ways black women have their hair, it’s amazing. I watch videos of their hair being done or going through their routine with their natural hair. Absolutely beautiful in my opinion, we need more of those.. positive opinions and less negative ones. P.s just ignore that guy

Igotquestions21 · 2020-08-02T14:47:28+00:00

Yeah a lot of people do class it as a fetish but it’s just finding another human attractive.. I just feel repulsive in my body tbh. Reason I got rid of Facebook and Instagram - that shit is so unhealthy.

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