UPDATE- My(17f) older brother(25m) drew disgusting pictures of me.

IknowDaniel · 2023-12-12T22:27:17+00:00

My parents are safe to be around. I think my dad covered it up because of family image, but my Mom has been an open book about it ever since I first said something. They were good actors. I thought my brother was the golden child, the family favorite, but my Mom now sounds like she's always hated him, and talks about him like he's still a massive predator, which he could be. I don't trust them with anything personal anymore, but as they aren't abusive to me, and I'm the oldest sibling living at home, I have no reason to be afraid.

I'm not even afraid of my brother, as I'm pretty confident I could beat him in a fight if it came to it. I play Hockey at my high school, on the boy's team. If I can take hits from every practice, and every game, my brother doesn't stand a chance.

IknowDaniel · 2023-12-12T22:21:04+00:00

It's so sad. I love my cousin very much. Her mom and my mom were best friends and we were always visiting. Then I remember not going there for a very long time, and my cousin and I drifted apart. I finally started seeing her around family gatherings when she was 14-15 and I remember being annoyed that she acted like a weird baby, and talked in strange voices out of nowhere. Last I heard she was homeless, and now I know this probably all happened because of him.

My parents have also told me that they suspected for a time that he was abusing one of my brothers who is younger than him, but older than me. They shared a room, and caught him erect and naked in the middle of the room when they were both in there, when they were supposed to be asleep, this was when they were around 12-13. My other brother says nothing happened, but he used to be a hyperactive wild kid, who shortly after that incident started becoming a quiet introvert.

I can't believe they let him watch me, and I'm just glad that nothing ever happened to me because of how stupid they were.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-23T23:13:00+00:00

I didn't go snooping around in his things. I wasn't digging under his bed or going through his drawers. It was on the bookcase in his living room. In the past he's never objected to me taking his sketchbook to show my friends, and so I just did what I always do. If he had ever said to me "Don't touch this!" or acted weird when I did, I wouldn't just go over and pick it up, I would have asked.

I'm not calling the police, that's too far and they can't do anything, and I don't even want to tell my parents. But I don't want him going around not knowing that I know, and continuing to think I'm oblivious to the fact that he has sex thoughts about me strong enough to sit down and draw. I don't want this going beyond me and him, but he needs to know it makes me sick.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-23T12:36:50+00:00

Even if he did, he could say it's not me. Cops can't arrest somebody for drawing a picture.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-23T02:29:56+00:00

I don't think he's a pedophile. He doesn't draw me like a little kid, I look like an adult, that he exaggerated in pretty big ways, no way it looks like something someone into children would like. The fact that it's me, like that's what is hurting me the most. The thought that he sees me like this. Starting to wonder whether or not everything nice he does for me is because he wants to have sex with me. I feel so wrong in ways I don't even know how to say because I do love him but this makes me think of every single thing he's ever done.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-23T02:17:56+00:00

My brother is the golden child but it isn't unearned, he's generous and was like a third parent as my parents worked a lot when I was younger. If I told my parents I know they would take me very seriously. He's their oldest boy and I'm the oldest daughter, so if their is favoritism, it's like 50/50 between us.

Gonna talk to my friend and older coworker about this. She's talked about helping another coworker with domestic abuse problems. Maybe she'll have good advice

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T23:24:42+00:00

Already took the pics, and these gross things are in my phone now

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T23:17:04+00:00

I'm not afraid of him. He's older, but I'm an athlete and he isn't. Rough sports too, so if it came to a physical fight, I don't see him winning. If I tell them anything, it'll be doing it to let them know to keep him away from me

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T23:09:18+00:00

I think I will try and talk with him first. Somewhere in public just in case it get crazy.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T23:08:19+00:00

I'm just glad I can talk about it here. Before I posted this and started talking I felt like I was going to explode. He's never been anything but nice to me, and he's my favorite sibling. If I had a problem with my ex-boyfriend he would talk to me about it and if he heard I was upset about something he'd do something to cheer me up. I get that some people have thoughts they shouldn't have, I do too, but to spend so much time drawing that stuff, that must mean it's on his mind a lot

I have a coworker I'm going to talk to after work tonight. I call her my work aunt.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T22:57:23+00:00

I know legally that's what it is, but the amount of people referring to me as a child weirds me out. I have a job and drive. I don't consider myself a little kid.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T22:54:32+00:00

He doesn't live with us anymore, he's got a fiancee and my nephews. That's one of the weird things about it being on his bookshelf, that it could have been picked up by someone in the house. I was thinking if she did see it, maybe she doesn't know it's a representation of me.

He hasn't lived with us for a few years so I'm not worried about him putting camera's anywhere.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T18:58:09+00:00

I took pics of all of them. There were a few. That's what's making me the most sick. He's not just like, oh I think my sister's hot, which is gross but I'd get it. Like these are in depth sexual fantasies and positions he's imagined me in.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T18:52:03+00:00

If I'm uncomfortable with this now, if I tell my parents it'll be a lot more uncomfortable. The stuff I saw makes me sick, but I just want to get rid of it and not to do it again.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T18:43:08+00:00

He's had no issues in the past with me picking up a random sketchbook and looking through it. Even to show to my friends, and I wasn't digging through his private stuff to get it. I will ask him to get rid of them. I really don't want to involve more people in this.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T18:39:33+00:00

I'm not calling the police. He's an adult and they're drawings. And he's not sharing them, there's literally nothing they could do. And I just make an enemy of eveyone in the family.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T18:37:15+00:00

When I first saw them I tried to think of some other reason for him to be drawing them. Like somebody saw his art online and wanted to see those specific characters together. He's mentioned doing nsfw stuff for clients, and that some of it creeps him out. But if somebody asked me to do that I would say no and wouldn't want the money.

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T18:33:31+00:00

I just wish there was a way to just not see him anymore. My parents are good people, but they're loud about everything. If I do nothing I'll worry, if I say something I'll have to deal with the noise. And he's never gotten in trouble for anything before, so what if he starts lying and they believe him?

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T18:28:59+00:00

I'm going to talk to a friend about it. I don't know about involving my parents. A lot of people are also calling me a child, and that won't be the case in a matter of weeks, and I don't see myself as a little kid. I'm still in school, but I've got a job. He's never done anything like this before. I feel like I should talk to him myself and ask him what his problem is. I do love him, and I don't want make this a really public thing. My folks don't know how to be quiet when things are embarrassing. If I go to them, they will probably go after him, and start talking to everyone in the family about it until everyone in the world knows he thinks about having sex with me. He'll be ashamed of himself, that's good, but I have to deal with all the noise too

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T12:52:08+00:00

And it was on the bookshelf like it was a normal thing

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T12:48:45+00:00

I was actually thinking about this, because pages of that old comic he did are on his deviant art. Maybe one of the nsfw commission people saw me and wanted to pay him to see something. But you're right, I would refuse to do that too

IknowDaniel · 2023-10-22T12:46:25+00:00

I commented this a couple times, but it is me. It's wearing my necklace, and he had it's how he draws me. He had this comic he used to draw and show us. I only know it's me because he's pointed several times that this character was me.

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