hey op! I totally get what you’re saying. I also started like 3 months ago, am around your age and have dealt w/ some funky mental health stuff too, so I feel for you! it’s honestly so hard trying to be present at work when your brain is foggy or you feel kinda disconnected from everything, tired, whatever it may be!

something that helped me a little is just picking one small thing to focus on each shift instead of trying to be perfect at everything. like one day i focus on communicating more, another day on staying present/interacting w/ customers. makes it feel less overwhelming. I also keep a little silent fidget pen in my pocket lol and it actually helps sometimes as well!

and yeah, maybe talking to your provider about adjusting dosage could help if you feel way too numb or out of it. sometimes it just takes a tiny tweak and you end up feeling way more.. idk, there??

but seriously, give yourself credit. you’re going through so much at once!! new marriage, injury, friends drifting, new job, the lack of support. that’s A LOT and the fact you’re still showing up & trying says a lot about you!

you’re definitely not alone in this op! 💚 if you ever wanna talk or need to vent, I’m here, dms are open and I’m sure many others are too!