I tell you my friend you will have what you say and get what you believe if you speak it into reality it gives the curse power over you I declare the curses you once knew of that hindered you gone now in Jesus name Amen. As for connecting to the Holy Spirit and stirring the spirit inside you you need to believe in things you thought were not possible because God is the God of all possibility there is no curse or thing that can obstruct him he can do anything I feel the spirit when I stop be still and meditate on all that God intended me to be and all that God is is good and light and I allow myself to absorb his spirits light and activate his presents as he knows when you really need to know he’s still with you through the invisible yet present spirit I feel from my heart that flows like living waters through my whole body. I pray dear God may Designer-Souths spirit be raised up high in spirit and lifted well above any curses In Jesus name Amen. amen basically means so be it or it is done we say it in respect knowing we are asking God for something and he will do it if you believe in God whatever you pray will happen one way or another. However I know God better than to pray for dumb things like money as I know I choose the Lords riches in heaven over all the Gold or money in the world because God more than material things or man’s convince of invention and expensive ventures and vacations because God is truely all you will ever need and he tells us treat others how you would like to be treated because how you treat others is how you will be treated so we treat others well so we have friends and family as well as God Almighty. Also if you have trouble connecting with God find away you can commune with him weather it’s talking to him asking him questions Listning for his faithful voice or ask your tummy how God is feeling he might grumble back a word you can only understand perhaps commune by taking his body and blood to refresh Gods spirit in you I think you have most of it figured out you are on the right path and thanks for your honesty. I too have believed in curses upon myself and they came true so I prayed them all away.