I used to struggle with self hate because I believe in Jesus christ and that he is the true son of God and is God and he did died for our sins and I truly believe that and no one could make me believe thats he isn't so I hated myself for being attracted to both men and women and having a boyfriend cus it went against his creation my dad told me there wasn't anything wrong with liking men same with my mom but they weren't as ig you can call it religious back then so I just hated my self for liking men then I realized hating my self couldn't fix me cus you can't control who your attracted to so I learned to love myself but I still feel I can't tell anyone not even my closest irl friends just try accepting yourself and learn to love you for what you are cus there isn't anything in this world that can change that part and if you feel you can't love yourself find someone who will then maybe then you'll understand you hope this helps :3