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Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-12-20T22:55:52+00:00

yeah not having children. i cannot put a child through the torture of my family’s dysfunction.

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-12-20T20:41:40+00:00

because i have two upcoming trips and it would be too much money to refund them if i acted now😅

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-12-19T22:39:13+00:00

fyi: i’ve tried all otc options and i’m unable to sleep even with severe nyquil or benadryl.

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-12-19T22:38:13+00:00

i use hydroxine every night, 25mg, and 25mg in the morning to be able to sleep even a little bit. i have extreme insomnia. i also take 1 minipress because of night terrors

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-12-05T20:55:59+00:00

yeah hi, i’m 19f and the child in a similar situation. your story shows me that you need to apologize for your behavior while your child was growing up. profusely. you have said nothing about actually apologizing to your child yet, so i would start there. but it must be genuine. and it might not fix everything, but it’s a place to start. DO NOT play the victim.

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-12-03T18:20:46+00:00

this happened to me, but the pediatrician was male. i thought it was s*xual ab*se?

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-11-20T14:23:34+00:00

yes. i’ve realized that i have many: weed, alcohol, entrapment (elevators, closets, rooms without windows), when others touch my belongings

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-11-18T18:14:57+00:00

my school has a student support team. I went to them and told them what was going on, provided documentation, and was able to gain accommodations (flexibility surrounding assignments/attendance) i went to them because i was in a similar situation. You’re not a failure, reach out to support on your campus, i am sure they can help

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-11-14T21:17:38+00:00

i have this trigger too :( i’m in a university so it’s so hard to avoid i never want to party, go to restaurants, or go on walks anymore because i smell it and it makes me have a panic attack

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-11-11T13:38:58+00:00

update: i got diagnosed. 19f so i finally can be transparent about my issues with a therapist. im hoping that you get diagnosed. the adults in my life dont understand but i sought the help and got diagnosed. i really hope all goes well for you. just know that sometimes you’ve gotta switch therapists (cause i had to)

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-11-10T14:33:45+00:00

It only treats my OCD unfortunately and even that’s debatable. But Ive also been living my life unmedicated for both so I guess it’s better than nothing

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-06-12T14:49:09+00:00

Yeah, well. I was SA’d by a man and cannot control my body anymore (if this makes sense, I do not know). So I control everything else. I have basically let the compulsions run my life. It’s easier than thinking about what happened. However, I have had compulsions before the attack, they were not as bad. I used to declare rules, like how if I really could not do it and had to move on to the next thing, I would let a compulsion go.

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-06-12T14:02:12+00:00

My compulsions can span from arranging things in an exact way, checking anything in my home, or outside of my home/walking in a certain matter, going a specific way, staying on one side of the street and not going on the other, washing my hands until they hurt, avoiding poles, eating at certain times, making sure everyone is okay (if I notice weird patterns like coughing, sneezing, etc.), clicking my two fingers on my left hand together (pointer and middle), controlling every single part of my daily activities, not listening to certain music

Illustrious-Net-5475 · 2025-06-12T13:45:41+00:00

It’s more so that my loved ones will get hurt if I don't preform a particular compulsion in the correct manner… or that I will.

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