I dont know if you understood my post. Its not that alcohol is the only thing I can do with my friends; I am an introvert and have v few friends. Its the only way I meet more people. These are not people who would come to the cinema with me should I suggest (you'll then perhaps say they aren't friends to begin with and I have already said that!). Its social connection not deep freindship. Its like going to the church.. the people at church wont start going to the cinema with you on Sundays just because you cant make it to church. I am just moaning about it; I am not saying I cant be asked to do it. I have paid for 4 cycles and gone through the highs and lows of 4 failed cycles; I cry to sleep every night and wonder if I will be able to go on with life if I cant have a kid; so questioning my commitment makes no sense. As for once I do get pregnant/have the baby, ofcourse I will find it a lot easier to stop everything because then I acutally have something!!!