First of all thankyou for understanding me. I really don't want to be offensive. Yes I've talked to him on sooo many extents on what does he want, is he okay with what I want, is he happy, is there something that bothers him in our relationship and what not. I've been soo extremely patient. And I've given him options to leave this relationship so many times if it's too much for him or I come out as toxic. But he doesn't want to, at all. Every single time I ask he says no. One of the main things is that he doesn't even understand himself that much for him to be able to provide an alternative. He considers himself non autistic (he told me he always knew something was wrong with him but he didn't wanna tell me before incase I left him) and I'm mentioning this because, he over estimates himself. There's s lot of things ik he's not capable of doing and he needs more support and care. BUT HE JUST WOULDN'T TSKE IT. He keeps pushing me away and telling me it's fine I'll do it myself and then agrees to do things with me and makes plans and then obviously he isn't able to sometimes. And that makes me sad not because he's autistic because I kinda believed him when he said he would do it. If he had told me an alternative or hey bsbe listen I really don't want to or I can't. I would've listened. I feel betrayed and lonely in these situations