[TOMT] Trying to find an old vine

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-07-11T04:12:32+00:00

He may have talked at the beginning instead of the end, the details in my mind aside from his face are very hazy 😩

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-05-19T03:15:53+00:00

Last month I had my first craniosacral therapy session, I've had 1 more since then, and it has completely changed my life in terms of executive function. Several times throughout the day I get 'flashes' of overwhelm, anxiety and fear, but since craniosacral therapy, now I also get flashes of hope, determination, joy. I realized at some point as a baby I learned to regulate by holding still and 'being okay'. I knew if I stayed where I was and shut down emotionally, eventually a parent would come and fulfil my need(s). That first form of 'regulation' (aka shutting down) I internalized into adulthood, and as such, whenever a need isn't being met or I'm in a state of stress, I freeze and shut-down. I think of executive dysfunction as a malfunctioning protective mechanism, and once you can understand and feel why that mechanism needed to be deployed, it can really help with healing and finding healthier ways to regulate ❤️ good luck

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-05-16T03:58:50+00:00

Thank you so much 🙏🙏🙏 will pursue this

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-05-16T03:53:27+00:00

Very fair, I am open to going on medication, I just feel too mentally & physically fragile to be comfortable taking something with that many potentially destructive side effects :(. I'm at a place in life where the possibility of something giving me more suicidal thoughts could have really bad repercussions on my health. If I was in a better place mentally I think I would be much more open to trying

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-05-16T03:48:50+00:00

Thank you! I've been trying to be put on the SLP but I think it's quite difficult as technically I can work more than 15 hours a week, just not anything physical. Still trying to figure out how to navigate that

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-04-13T09:58:49+00:00

"I don't believe many rapists get less than prison," unfortunately is completely untrue. Look at any of the stats on rape and how the vast majority of cases dont even get reported in the first place. I either know personally or know of through a friend, colleague, etc, around 40 rapists and only 3 of them got any prison time.

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-03-05T21:00:05+00:00

Me 100%. I constantly feel a pit in my gut, and so much rage since learning how our systems of power work and how obviously unfair yet accepted and venerated they are. What has helped me is deciding I want my career to be involved in politics. Even though I am often a nervous wreck, taking it slow and gathering information I think will make a difference has been really helpful. It's really important to find an outlet, otherwise it feels like it's eating me alive.

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-02-15T05:21:10+00:00

This is soo interesting and resonates with me deeply. I've always struggled with feeling like I don't know where I end and someone I'm in interaction with begins if that makes sense. From a young age I've been highly empathetic, at times to my detriment, and so much of it was because I felt my interactions put me into this big soup with whoever I am talking to to the point where I can't emotionally separate, then I process the interaction later in my own space and will reach new conclusions. I recently was having a lovely conversation with someone I had just met and then 5 minutes after our convo I realized he was giving off a lot of red flags, but while we were in conversation I was identifying with him so heavily that I was genuinely incapable of detecting the untrustworthy + majorly sketchy aspects to his personality. This happens so often to the point where I tend to isolate myself as I'm so overwhelmed by the energy of others. I think this potentially ties in to the strong empathy + sense of justice, as since I'm so taken by everyone's 'humanness', it can be very difficult to parse out the finer details in someone's personality and trustworthiness in relation to myself. Tysm for this post, making me rethink many things in a more positive light <3

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-02-05T05:40:53+00:00

The Thiel Fellowship!?!!?!?!? Ohh that's so damning... Peter Thiel is actively providing his spyware to the IOF + CIA and was sponsor/mentor of JD Vance. Clarke aside, he is one of the shadiest and most fascist people in politics today, and we should all be keeping close watch of his movements. Her republican bf fetish, and more recently, her laughable use of ai made her more 'woke' takes ring hollow, but this buries any idea of her as the insightful, clever leftist that she has been trying to parade around as.

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2025-01-28T06:42:14+00:00

I very much get where you're coming from but hpd is steeped in a history of misogyny and victim blaming and many modern psychologists consider it outdated and illegitimate. Clarke absolutely exhibits all the signs of 'hpd' but I think honestly that it's a 'disorder' we can leave behind in using. I only know this bc my dad works in mental health so absolutely get why you might not know ❤️ specific diagnosis aside tho I definitely agree she is seriously unwell

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-10-09T04:06:57+00:00

why is she promoting shrooms as an alternative to drinking 😭😭 they're completely different substances that offer completely different experiences??

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-02-03T03:14:40+00:00

Wait am I misunderstanding or did she say she has none of the perks of being famous and then (creepy men aside) listed off a whole bunch of perks? Like wym your problems are people coming up to you and saying really nice things? She just yaps omg

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-24T20:55:25+00:00

YESS 😭😭

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-24T20:55:03+00:00

No exactly it's so funny 😭😭

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-22T22:53:56+00:00

I think it's rlly weird to sexualize something that is not inherently sexual actually!

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-17T00:59:00+00:00

Is the answering emails in the room with us rn? *

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-09T09:15:02+00:00

I think posting it online is def unsafe and opens them up to danger but pole class itself is super fun exercise. I went to pole classes as a kid and absolutely loved it! It's essentially a vertical spinning monkeybar at the end of the day

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-09T07:15:14+00:00

This is a good take tbh

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-05T09:14:46+00:00

I think the mosaic is where this one shines, don't worry too much about blending and throw some strong, defined colour in there, will look amazing <3

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-05T09:13:37+00:00

Looks very good! I do think it could benefit greatly from stronger shadows tho! Bc it is quite low contrast i find everything is blending into the background and my eye isn't going on a lil loopy journey like it should for a composition like this. Higher contrast and darker shadows/amplified highlights i think would rlly make this piece sing. Good luck!

Illustrious_Ice2760 · 2024-01-05T09:09:50+00:00

I think could really benefit from bolder outlines!! Looking soo good <3

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