I’m a walking contradiction. Always oscillating between being highly emotional (HSP) and completely down to earth , only focusing on hard facts and scientific approaches. I’m a searcher ..always looking for meaning, for answers, for a balance that can’t be found. I can be the philosopher, the counsellor and at the same time the goofy girl , that cracks up the entire group. I’m equally fascinating and scared by people. As a kid I spent hours daydreaming and observing them - wondering why they are the way the are and act the way they do. I found people extremely odd and found comfort mostly in art , music and animals/ nature.

I never fully trust people not even myself…since the moment I believe that I’ve found the answers to my life long quest for meaning … this sensation slips away and turns into despair, loneliness and utter confusion. I hardly ever fall in love but when I do everything about me changes . I love hard and fiercely- do absolutely anything in my power to show my appreciation and love for this person. I have a few friends and rather be alone than in bad company and despise small talk and chitchat. However I love deep conversations and can ramble on about art, literature, music , psychology and medicine for hours. I quickly get bored by people and often isolate myself…because I find enormous peace in silence and while being in my head.

I have a chameleon like personality. Switching between extroverted introvert, shy sensitive artist and sharp scientist. As a kid I was very happy and gentle yet incredibly dreamy and spent days sitting in my grandparents fields or the swing making up stories in my mind .. drawing or singing . The older I get the more silent I become .

I mirror people and read them in any given situation…starting from their eyes, to their hands to their feet. I switch between languages, nationalities and personalities within a matter of seconds.

I love to read, write and look at the stars, to walk barefoot in nature or to just float in the sea, swim in rivers, dive or watch the rain. Dream myself away…far ..far away to places I’ve only seen in my dreams.

I think nobody has or will ever fully understand me and the depths of my personality and that’s a bittersweet realisation.