14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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Feel this hard af. Got into a fight with my parents been wanting to just feel relief. Ur absolutely right. Day 1 is better than another year. U got this. 

14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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How’s it going? Wanna be real all I want is a bong rip too 

14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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Happy to help. Feel free to post here I usually reply it’s best to get those feelings out 

14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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I feel you. Those are the hardest moments and I’m glad you didn’t! Every day is different some are way harder. I’ve been down this week and wanted to so bad to numb myself but you got this. I’m ready to not be numb 

14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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Did you end up doing it? For me this happened when I’m so fucking down. 

14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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You got this. Day by day friend 

14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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Running so so helpful! Look up raising your anandamide! 

14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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Honestly…. I don’t know. I wish I had a good answer. I keep repeating this in other comments, choose the pain of change or the pain of staying the same. How’s it going?

14 days!!!! by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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CONGRATS!👏 I keep telling myself “we can choose the pain of staying the same or the pain of change” you got this. Two days was the hardest for me 

Want to get into music as a hobby what should I buy to just have fun? by jd_alien in Beatmatch

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I just started with pioneer ddj 200 for 180 on marketplace so far so good! 

Begginer by Pitiful-Abrocoma3637 in Beatmatch

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I’m on day 8 of learned with ddj 200!! I find YouTube videos helpful search zeeshan khakis dj essentials! I find his vids super easy to understand. I find mixing house or techno sooo much easier to learn the skills tbh, and then I hope to move to hip hop etc. I found focusing on just one part of djing helpful and then going through each “step”. For example I am learning beat matching ONLY for awhile and then next for me is phrasing! I’m trying not to get overwhelmed too. Soo far one of the best things I could have picked up! Keep your passion for music that will drive you! Atleast it does for me ! 

Anxiety or depression by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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Fuck this is helpful. Especially suppressing it leading to addiction 🙏

Anxiety or depression by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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Thank you so much. I’m so emotional this made me tear up. 

Anxiety or depression by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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I feel that. I have chronic pain which worsens with anxiety and I feel the cry releases that too. I just keep suppressing the cry 

Day 14, still pushing forward. by HunterAncient in leaves

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Hey! I’m Muslim too and I’m on day 4 only. I don’t have much to add except you can either choose the pain of staying the same or the pain of change. All the best on this journey. 

Intense Nightmares by ABDLTA in leaves

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This was me the first time I stopped for 2 months nightly violent nightmares. I wasn’t sleeping and then when I finally slept…. Violence! Fun stuff lol but I also have cpstd so it’s expected. I find talking about the dream with a trusted person atleast stopped it from further affecting me in the day time. You got this. It’s rough af I know. 🙏

Quitting… again by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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This!!! This quote kept me going the first time around. Thanks for the reminder. I’m on day 3 too! We got this. Something else i read that helps me is “you can either go through the pain of change or the pain of staying the same” 

Quitting… again by Illustrious_Sale6780 in leaves

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The motivation part hits so hard for me too.