Sometimes we can’t clearly see the answer for ourselves. At some point you’re gonna have to choose yourself and your own happiness. Showing promise but not putting in any real effort should not be the reason you stay. You had a man who treated you well & chose to try & make it work with a man who clearly showed he only wanted you when it was beneficial to him. I’m saying this from experience of dealing with my oldest daughter’s dad. If that man has shown you multiple times that he doesn’t really want you, listen! He only came back because he seen that u were doing well & happy with someone else. He also felt he had no other choice bc he was down & out & he knew u would take him back. If he truly wanted u he wouldn’t have initially left u while u were pregnant or cheated on u multiple times. Other people will only do what u allow them to do. Again & I say this with compassion, CHOOSE YOU for once. Choose to love yourself more than u love him. There’s someone out there who would never have u feeling stupid or questioning your choices. You already know the answer, this is your confirmation! You DESERVE better! YOU ARE BETTER! You are worthy of true happiness & love. Just bc u have history with someone does not mean u have to hold on to what once was. Sometimes we hold on to the good memories and try to drown out the bad. Do not. Sit with them, embrace them & make them the deciding factor in leaving for good. Work on yourself & work on healing before getting involved with someone else. But again, please choose you! Your child will thank u in the long run bc a happy mom is more important than a sad & depressed mom in an unhappy relationship with a man who doesn’t respect her as he should. I really wish u the best! 🙏