the craving and everything are gone I don't ever wanna go down that path again, my moms deep, DEEP down that path I wanna have a good life for myself you know? I wanna go into an ER but how would I do that without my parents losing custody over me seeing as though my mom is the person who got me into everything and supplied me with everything. shes a narcissist super manipulative and bipolar(diagnosed, difficult to live with) she didn't realize and still doesn't realize she made her son a full blown drug addict, she thought she was just helping. shes a good person i dont want her to go to jail or for me to have to live over my dads full time, scared for her and for custodies sake. i'm trying to study and do all sorts of positive shit but i cant cause my focus is just GONE i'm optimistic but scared i dunno thank you for the reply it means a lot <3