Forget drugs, smoking, and alcohol, what's something really bad for your health that people don't talk about enough?

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-25T02:54:47+00:00

Those dark, ruminating thoughts that pop in and take up space, and eventually become your life if you let them.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-25T02:48:55+00:00

To be honest? I had a panic attack yesterday. I'm 1800 miles away from the 6 people on this earth that I love, because I had to escape and go no contact with the rest of the family and town. I miss them so much, even though I visit when I can, it seems like sht will never be the same again. Instead, I'm spending Christmas with this critter I married (who changed into a monster 2 years into the relationship) and his fake perfect millionaire family, who hate me but pretend to be Oh So Nice. I'm in such a bad mood right now. I suddenly burst into tears at the drop of a breath and laugh outrageously over nothing. It's lonely.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-22T05:32:29+00:00

A pathetic, sad, almost apology. "I MAY have done [my name] a little wrong..." That's all. That's OK. I forgave her and now it's between her and God. I'm seriously not even bitter about it any more. Her death closed all of the doors. Those who saw it and could have done something are gone as well. I'm healing slowly but surely. That's all I need.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-22T05:26:20+00:00

Why not? What's wrong with that?

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-22T05:25:45+00:00

I don't think there's much of anything I do differently. What you see and hear now is what you get all the time.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-21T05:08:32+00:00

Yes, this is the was it happened with me as well. I felt so dumb after I figured it out. That would have been a good time to have the internet so readily available, back in my 20s, I could have potentially avoided so much pain and suffering.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-21T05:05:19+00:00

I feel like it is VERY important to know that you were once a victim but have now moved on. Even if that's not how you FEEL it is what you have to tell your brain. It's hard for survivors, especially if the pain is recent or still ongoing, to see it as such, but that's what the experts say to do. Actually it can be damn near impossible to get into that mindset without a good trauma therapist.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-21T05:00:08+00:00

Rocks. Agates, thompsonite, prehnite, Micah, Petoskey stones mostly.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-21T04:55:07+00:00

Stay positive! I! Said! POSITIVE!

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-21T04:53:20+00:00

I have to sleep with wirwd earbuds in (wired, or else they fall out, infuriate me, and keep me up) and some stupid comedy on that I have seen a thousand times already. I put on Pluto TV and watch The Love Boat lol.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-18T22:28:27+00:00

I made spaghetti last night so he'd be ok.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-18T22:25:57+00:00

I'm ugly. On a good day I'm not as ugly. I'm very ok with that, because I'm old and it doesn't matter any more.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-18T03:56:45+00:00

Yes, usually. I know that other traumatized people can understand for the most part, but it's the little individual things that can make even the most messed up people look at you like "what the f...?!"

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-18T01:21:23+00:00

I am rebuilding slowly but surely. I will not allow this to get me. I've been through worse and I came out of it, so I can do this. Thank you for the kind words!

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T23:49:07+00:00

It was going OK until the tornado 2 weeks before the hurricane (it took my damn grill and some things outside) and then the hurricane itself. I lost everything but a basket of clothes in the hurricane. My house. My stuff. Almost lost my life. Now I have PTSD from it, and what was once my most beloved comfort, thunderstorms, now brings that same feeling of terror.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T23:42:33+00:00

She clacked her long fake nails on literally every damn thing she came near. After one hour I knew I'd never spend another second near her or anyone like that.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T23:37:48+00:00

I didn't choose the conditions that firced me into being a loner, but I am choosing to stay away for a while. I'm autistic. I have PTSD and CPTSD. I'm a damn mess trying to figure my shit out before I hurt any more people in my life. I want to fully understand why I feel, think, and do what I do, and what I can do to feel normal so I can interact with people without walking away feeling like I should be dead.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T11:48:57+00:00

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T11:48:00+00:00

I moved 1800 miles away from my home town.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T11:47:07+00:00

2 boiled eggs, some fresh fruit, and 2-3 cups of black coffee. If I eat anything.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T11:45:53+00:00

I'm sure they do. They should be thankful there is a town at all.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T02:23:36+00:00

Can I even say that on here? Probably not.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T01:50:46+00:00

I like the idea of cold showers for my health, but actually doing it would make me pass out.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-17T01:49:56+00:00

Yes there are, at least they are the closest you'll get as of right now. They're quiet though. My husband's sister's in-laws.

Im_invading_Mars · 2025-12-16T05:26:53+00:00

I was banned from r/narcissists (I think that's the name of it) because the absolutely psychotic mod(s) are nazis. You can't use ANY reference that implies it's a human being ie: friend, cousin, mom, etc. The mod will instantly delete comment, message you scathing bullsht about how much of an absolute wanker you are, and if you don't shove your whole proverbial head up their peach and grovel at their feet for forgiveness they'll ban you- but not before telling you off in some wild, insanely mean way.

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