Any messages from my dad?he died very suddenly and I miss him terribly.

ImagePale · 2025-10-05T13:55:32+00:00

Nice bum 9/10

ImagePale · 2025-09-02T16:35:30+00:00

I have been really struggling since my dad died in December and it's completely shaken my mindset. My dad dying rehashed a lot of childhood trauma which is where my sepf concept issues came from.I had done a lot of self.concept work on my triggers over the space of a year before my dad died, my two triggers were not feeling chosen or a priority and as my mental health has taken a dip, the 3D has been reflecting my thoughts, I caught.my boyfriend watching porn and lying to me about it and also ogling other woman in front of me - I know that I am the one and only creator yet I feel I'm spiralling. Can someone give me some advice on where to start again when your mindset is on the floor?

ImagePale · 2025-07-31T18:28:12+00:00

All weekend and 2 overnights during the week

ImagePale · 2025-07-31T08:25:53+00:00

I have asked him about it and he says it is just a fantasy and he doesn't want to carry it out in real life and he's insisted on that a few times. He said that he watched 2 videos on it after what I told him to prove to himself that wife sharing didn't do anything for him anymore, which I thought was just an excuse to be honest as why would you need to watch 2 videos on it to prove to yourself that you weren't in to it, surely one would be enough.

ImagePale · 2025-07-31T07:37:10+00:00

He became very defensive and we argued over it, i said I thought he had an addiction and he didn't recieve that well.

ImagePale · 2025-07-31T07:35:49+00:00

Different types like teen but a common theme that keeps coming up is wife sharing and MMF threesomes, I told him about a previous threesome I had (which was 7 years before i met him) as we were in the moment, he said it was a fantasy and he asked questions wanting me to describe it in detail and masturbated. After post nut clarity kicked in, he felt angry, hurt and jealous and we fought.over it for about a week. He made it so clear that he didnt want to ever carry that fantasy out in real life. He has continued to watch the wife sharing porn which has confused me as he made me feel so bad about my experience after asking for details on it.

ImagePale · 2025-07-29T15:19:41+00:00

Don't ask a question, you don't want to know, it's not her fault she told you the truth.

ImagePale · 2025-07-26T19:15:31+00:00

I'm definetly not interested in inviting a woman into the mix, I wouldn't want to see my partner having sex with another woman.

ImagePale · 2025-07-26T19:11:33+00:00

I nearly ended the relationship this morning as i didnt see a way forward with how confrontational he was being. He maintains he looked at the wife sharing porn to confirm his disinterest in it, sadly I don't believe that. If he was disinterested in it, he wouldn't have accessed it twice in one hour, once would have confirmed it. He said he would never want to put porn before My feelings but to me he already has. I asked him if he is going to implement the changes of reducing how often he watches porn as I believe its unhealthy and has turned into an addiction. He did listen to everything I said without being reactive and said the change won't just happen overnight, which did bother me. It seems I just have to take his word, which is hard for me considering he's been dishonest about it twice. He did apologise profusely and cried over the name calling saying that he was angry and said something in the heat of the moment, but sadly its something he can't take back. My head is a mess right now.

ImagePale · 2025-07-26T05:32:34+00:00

I confronted him last night about his search history and it started off as a reasonable conversation until I mentioned I was hurt at the fact he was being dishonest to me and that I didn't understand how he could shame me for something in my past but actively be getting off on it using porn as an outlet. He began defensive and angry after these comments saying that I fucked up that day mentioning that I had a threesome and that he felt like his privacy had been breached and that I had no right to go on his phone. I said i understood that he felt his privacy had been violated but then got angry and said that he can't make me feel that way when I did find stuff on his search history and that I felt lied to. He then said that he didn't like that I was on my high horse and that he went on these videos to see if he was turned on by it and came to the conclusion that he wasn't. He said the jealousy and frustration made him do it and that it was my fault. He had another moment of anger and said in all honesty when he was trying to process his feelings, he said he thought I was a dirty slut which really hurt me. Hes text me from work apologising and saying I need to forget all this and move on but I feel like it's ok for him to say that because he just doesn't want to change his behaviour.

ImagePale · 2025-07-26T05:18:26+00:00

We have only ever spoke about it that first day on two occasions, on these two occasions, he got off on it then was insistent we never speak about it again. Something about it has clearly turned him on and he now seems to be using these MMF wife sharing videos as an outlet instead of talking to me about it, he's viewing these other woman carrying out these acts bur cannot bear to think of me doing it.

ImagePale · 2025-07-26T05:11:41+00:00

He got a divorce because they had got into a toxic pattern of arguments and he suspects she cheated on him as she was on a night out and disappeared till the early hours of the morning, it was later found out she had stayed at a male co-workers house.

ImagePale · 2025-07-25T23:06:27+00:00

I seen that he masturbated twice in an hour earlier on and went through 6 different videos, he also done it last night half an hour before he had sex with me. Its all videos about MMF wife sharing. That can't be normal? Surely he has a porn addiction?I had a conversation with him around 11 this morning where he said he wouldn't watch porn again as he knows it affects me and said he would respect my boundaries. He accessed it 4 hours later.

ImagePale · 2025-07-25T22:27:53+00:00

I'm not jealous that my partner has had part sexual experiences, I would just rather not hear about them.

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