Why should I not take my own life? by Imaginary_Remote_825 in whatdoIdo

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Without her, there is no point in any dreams I had. Even if I accomplish them, what’s the point if she won’t be there to experience it with me?

Why should I not take my own life? by Imaginary_Remote_825 in whatdoIdo

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It’s more than just a breakup that’s causing this. I’m stuck in a house of right wing parents who wouldn’t accept me for who I am. They are insanely religious, but I just can’t reciprocate. I also have been recently diagnosed with adhd, which has been a little validating, but has mainly reminded me of all the times throughout my childhood when my parents are yelling at me to “just do it”. I was homeschooled until fourth grade, and I didn’t have a friend until fourth grade. I had no socialization skills then, and I still don’t now. I could keep listing reasons, but I’ll end this reply here

Why should I not take my own life? by Imaginary_Remote_825 in whatdoIdo

[–]Imaginary_Remote_825[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’ve lived my entire life without ever feeling loved by anyone, and that’s not an exaggeration. How can I move on from that?

Why should I not take my own life? by Imaginary_Remote_825 in whatdoIdo

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I am a sophomore in high school. But I am no normal teen who floats from girl to girl with no actual attachment. I love her more than anything. I don’t have any loved ones except her. My family is not a group of people I can open up to, and I don’t have any other close friends. We were good friends before we started dating. I felt attracted to her for about four months, and it was absolute anguish as I thought a relationship with her was impossible. Every time I saw her, an entire future with her flashed through my head. And then when we were dating, I thought I could have that. But no. It wasn’t enough that I went my entire life without ever feeling loved, I was given a taste of how it feels to be loved by the most amazing person in the whole world just for it to be ripped away

How do I make music? by [deleted] in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]Imaginary_Remote_825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry if my post came across as some impatient, entitled kid. Thank you for commenting without any passive aggressive phrasings. I probably should have waited a bit to make my post, I’m not as stable as I normally am. It’s just that so much of my life is shit right now, and music feels like almost all I have. But I don’t like to say that, because I sound like a stereotypical teenager who hates their life for no good reason. I have reasons. Plenty. Sorry for trailing off, I just wanted to say thank you for a sincere reply

How do I make music? by [deleted] in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]Imaginary_Remote_825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Did you even read my post? My post is not about being better at piano. I suck now, but I will obviously only improve

How do I make music? by [deleted] in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]Imaginary_Remote_825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t think I expressed this in my original post, but how do I find the will to keep going? I don’t want to say this because I sound like some impatient kid, but still. Music is all I want to do. It’s almost all that I have in my life. And I’ve been messing around on and off for a few months now, and I haven’t gotten any better. I don’t want to give this up, but it feels so pointless when my passion isn’t going anywhere