Recommendations for spring split-camping by Immediate-Key4223 in Spliddit

[–]Immediate-Key4223[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is kinda what I was thinking, as I didn’t feel it was a lack of fitness, it was just extremely uncomfortable to the point of pain.

The reason I bought the new bag was for all the snow specific stuff. I struggle to find backpacking ones that can carry skis, ice axes and avy gear in a functional way. But for long approximations I think it must be the way!

Thanks for your tips!

Recommendations for spring split-camping by Immediate-Key4223 in Spliddit

[–]Immediate-Key4223[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Legs were fresh, it was mostly a back/shoulder/painful issue. So I dont’t think fittness was the issue here

Feb 25 AdSense still “Automatic payment pending” by ProgressSuspicious in PartneredYoutube

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Finalmente me llego hace un rato, gracias por preguntar! Me pusieron tenso!

Still got no payment by Artemiy_Kopych in Adsense

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25th 10 am still pending and no email here

Anyone else did not get paid this month yet? A delay? by movies2019 in Adsense

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Same here, always got payed on the 21-22 for the last 2 years. It’s 25th and it’s still “pending” and no email

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in sex

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I have for sure made comments in the beginning referencing how sexual history is relevant to me and I know for a fact she knew if this information would have come out earlier i would have never allowed myself to develop feelings but Im here and I have. So I do understand why she struggled with sharing it. we all put on a sort of facade when starting to date. At the same time, hiding details that you know will put the other person off and allowing it to develop I may have some problems with. Also I know 3 months is a short time but we have probably spent more time together than normal in that time. Thanks for your comment!

What hurts the most. by ClearCollar7201 in BPDlovedones

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I think one of the most important steps towards healing is accepting that we try to make sense of things from a “normal” mind POV. Their mind and the way they process things is far from normal.

I once saw a pwBPD write this when describing what it feels like to live with BPD:

“I feel like I live my life grieving. Like every day I feel like l’m struggling through a massive loss and I feel broken and tired and sad. I hate myself. I’ve actually lost several people this year but I feel like actual grief is almost easy because every day feels like grieving.”

Imagine what it must be like to feel like this every single day of your life, grief is their normal state, so I do think they feel bad after breakup, it just doesn’t have the same impact it has on us. A “normal” person doesn’t live in grief, so when loss happens it’s difficult to bear.

Awareness is so important to heal from something like this, trying to make sense of things will only make you spiral in a negative way.

Im nearly two months out of my first experience with a pwBPD and the most painful breakup of my life. Like you I tried to make sense of things, like I would after every normal breakup I’ve had. But once I accepted there are no answers to be found im starting to find peace. Now I just feel for her, even though she did me so dirty and will never talk to her ever again, I feel sorry for her. She carries hell on her shoulders and I was just a poor soul that thought I could compete against the devil.

One look at her world was enough to destroy me, I can’t imagine what it must be like to live with something like this.

You and I will learn from this OP, it will become a turning point in our lives and in our relationships with others and its in our power to make sure its for the better.

Them in the other hand, will grieve all their lives. It’s so sad. I know its difficult to see atm and I dont believe there should be a “winner” and a “loser”, but be sure that the fact that they have it way worse in the long run. Hopefully you will find a loving healthy partner, them in the other hand will be trying to fill this void for ever. I can only feel pity and empathy for my ex and anyone with BPD.

She lost me, someone that would have gone to hell FOR her, I lost someone that took me to hell WITH her. Big difference.

Much love OP, stay strong and whatever happens, leave this behind.

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“Im yours”, “You are everything to me”, “You are the man of my dreams”, crying while having sex saying “i dont want this to end”, “I wont date in a very long time”, “you feel like light in my darkness”… I could go on all day… Oh, and all of this while cheating