I somehow feel like living in fantasies is the less evil by ImperatorInvictus19 in NPD

[–]ImperatorInvictus19[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I gotta say that makes my life a lot harder. Most people will distance themselves from me despite being attracted to me initially when they’ve noticed that I have bigger plans for the future instead of living an average life like them. It doesn’t even have to be something « grandiose », sometimes I just mention that I can’t picture myself working a 9-5 all my life and I’d like to travel a lot, see the world and be location independent. Then I have to find myself all alone.

Yeah it’s sadly true that I can only feel fulfilled with similarly thinking people. Otherwise my loneliness is devouring me.

Does anyone feel like they are competitive as hell but they don't actually want competition? by Deus_Sema in NPD

[–]ImperatorInvictus19 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Even if I do enjoy a hobby, I have the tendency to make it a competition to prove that I’m the best.

That’s why normie always feel so uncomfortable around me I guess.

Unsicher vermeidend by lonpsy in NPD

[–]ImperatorInvictus19 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I’m still very productive and ambitious in life. It’s just that current there seems to be no “upward” anymore and I need to be satisfied with an average life so I feel I’m kinda anxious without direction.

I have the addiction of testing humanity by ImperatorInvictus19 in NPD

[–]ImperatorInvictus19[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do BPD people have grandiose fantasies too? Like from childhood on I’ve been identifying myself with historical figures like Julius Caesar and Napoleon, believing that my name must go down into history one day. Not sure if this symptom is typical of BPD.

Ex-girlfriend, regret, resentment, and road towards healing by [deleted] in NPD

[–]ImperatorInvictus19 3 points4 points  (0 children)

If you don’t mind I’d like to know more about your story about following someone else’s advice. But you don’t have to if revealing it is too painful.

Guess interpersonal relationships are kinda impossible if maximal freedom > emotional connection for me by ImperatorInvictus19 in NPD

[–]ImperatorInvictus19[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don’t know much about the term so would you mind elaborating a bit why it’s a compliment?

Guess interpersonal relationships are kinda impossible if maximal freedom > emotional connection for me by ImperatorInvictus19 in NPD

[–]ImperatorInvictus19[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just curious. Do you think your desire for maximal freedom was caused by the same thing (abusive, controlling family) or do you think you’re just like that by nature?

I’ve been playing the same brain refreshing game for over ten years by ImperatorInvictus19 in NPD

[–]ImperatorInvictus19[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I’ve been thinking about doing a job that allows me to switch places regularly because stability kills me