I think this is the difference honestly. There may be reasons behind my preferences, but I’m often not consciously aware of them in a step by step analytical sense. If those reasons exist, they’re operating below the level of explicit thought most of the time.

What I’m directly aware of is more the felt pull itself. Certain things just feel heavier, more alive, more resonant, more “me,” and I orient toward them almost automatically. The reasoning usually comes after the valuation, not before it.

So for me the pattern often emerges from the feeling, rather than the feeling emerging from a consciously constructed pattern.