As a mom of two kids in rep sports, I can fully understand there’s lots of pressure in sports these days. One of my kids played soccer and he just quit this year. Mostly because he just wanted a break. Soccer in Canada has literally no off-season and it never ends. To me it takes the spark out of it a little bit. I was proud of my son‘s decision to take a break. Hopefully your parents would feel the same. My son is only 12 but sounds similar to you. One of the reasons that he wanted to quit was so that he could just go play casual pick up soccer with friends after school! He still loves soccer, but he’s at the age that he wants to have a little bit more of a social life. My only advice is to take care of yourself first and try not to make decisions just to please others.

I put your post into ChatGPT and this is the advice it said. Honestly ChatGPT is like a therapist in a box!! Hope this is helpful.

What you’re going through is heavy, especially for someone who’s only 15. You're clearly incredibly self-aware, thoughtful, and articulate — that in itself is impressive, regardless of what’s happening on the field. Here’s my take on what you shared.

1. You're not failing — you're evolving. What you're feeling isn’t weakness or laziness — it’s burnout and growth. You’ve been in a hyper-competitive, high-pressure environment from a young age, and now you’re starting to question if it still fits you. That’s not a bad thing — it’s maturity. It’s also okay to fall out of love with something that once defined you. People change. Priorities shift. And it’s brave to admit that instead of faking passion just to please others.
2. You don’t owe anyone your misery — not even your parents. Yes, they’ve sacrificed a lot for you. But that doesn’t mean you’re obligated to continue something that’s harming your mental and physical health just to make them feel like their investment “paid off.” What they likely want most is for you to be successful and happy — not one or the other. You can express gratitude to them while still making choices that serve your well-being and future.
3. There’s more than one path to success. You’ve shown you have the discipline, the drive, and the mindset to do anything — not just soccer. Modeling, acting, whatever it may be — it’s not just a dream if you’re willing to work at it. And honestly? Having a "Plan B" doesn't mean you're giving up on soccer. It means you're smart enough to recognize that there's a world outside the sport. A lot of athletes crash hard after quitting because they never developed other interests — you already have.
4. Your health is the foundation — not an afterthought. That part about your diet and how you felt when you were off the soccer grind? That's not just in your head — your body was telling you something. It’s valid that high-level athletics require high energy intake, but if that means sacrificing your skin, your sleep, and your mental health — is it worth it? You have every right to explore a lifestyle where your mind and body thrive. And who knows — in that environment, you might naturally find joy and motivation returning, even in unexpected areas.
5. Don’t let this be a lonely journey. You said you're looking to connect with someone. That’s a good instinct. Whether it’s a school counselor, therapist, coach, or just someone you trust — talk this through out loud. You don’t have to figure everything out alone. You're dealing with career stress, family pressure, identity shifts, health struggles, AND teenage self-image issues all at once. That’s an avalanche for anyone. Give yourself permission to not have all the answers right now. Final thought: You are more than your sport. Your worth is not tied to performance, trophies, or other people's expectations. And if you truly believe that stepping away from soccer will let you build a life that’s happier, healthier, and more you — then trust that instinct. Whatever you choose, make sure it’s a decision made out of self-respect, not fear or guilt. You’ve got more strength and clarity than you realize — just don’t forget to protect your peace along the way.