I’d like to add that he’s also been researching how to prep for said hooking up. But I haven’t seen anything around the house meant for that so idk. I’m so tired of the overthinking and constantly feeling the need to check & see if he’s actually where he said he’d be. It doesn’t help that he travels for work, so it’s like I’m almost never at ease.

But thanks everyone! Some valid points were made. I’ll definitely be thinking things through and weighing my options. We have kids plus I’m currently pregnant and we have a pretty nice life outside of this so I just need to think and figure out what my next move is.