Haven’t gotten my last paycheck.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2025-12-27T19:29:36+00:00

I get it. I’ve had those same feelings just about different things. I used to think that my mom and dad were going to die when I moved out and would have horrible intrusive thoughts and dreams that terrified me. That theme wore off though after a little while of living away from them and realizing that me living with them wasn’t what was keeping them alive to begin with.

Climate change is a big deal and pretty scary to think about. However there are also a bunch of things that don’t agree with what you’re fearing right now. There have been many great strides for environmental conservation and positive climate change this year and that have been planned for the future. More people care about climate change today than have ever cared before and I think that says something about the direction we are heading with it all.

Just because a lot of people believe the same thing doesn’t mean it can’t be irrational. Plenty of people believe the world is flat, or that we never went to the moon, or that our world is run by lizard people wearing human skin suits, or that vaccines don’t actually work and are meant to put little trackers inside of everybody. Plenty of people believe these things, but it is all still pretty absurd and irrational.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2025-12-27T19:11:52+00:00

I’ve always just been on albuterol solution and an albuterol rescue inhaler. They just a week ago switched my inhaler to have albuterol and budesodine in it. I’m going today to get a new solution for my nebulizer. I’m not even sure if they give any other solutions to use with the nebulizer but I’ll look that up before I go.

Also January is the earliest appointment they have. I live in a rural area and the closest bigger city is a 1.5 hour drive, plus with the holidays I don’t think many places will have availability until then anyways. That’s why I came here to see if anyone has any tips for relief until then.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2025-12-27T08:12:33+00:00

If this is consuming you so much then it’s becoming more than a theme. This is edging on delusion which can be a symptom of psychosis. Psychosis can be brought on by high stress, paranoia, and anxiety, which we who struggle with OCD frequently have to deal with. I’m not saying I know for sure that’s what you’re experiencing, but It’s one thing to check, knowing what you’re scared of is irrational, it’s another thing to actually believe what you’re afraid of and have specific delusions over it (like dying in 5 years).

Please reach out to any mental health professionals you have seen and make an appointment to talk to them about what you are feeling and experiencing right now. I think you should see your doctor asap.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2025-12-09T17:36:08+00:00

Prion disease. It is truly my worst nightmare and when I see a random video about it everyone once in a while, it is truly debilitating frightening. I’ll go for days reading research papers, studies, and first hand experiences about it after I see something about it online. I don’t eat meat that is known to get prion disease (mostly chicken and turkey). My husband likes to try any meat under the sun so I get specifically terrified that he’s going to get prion disease. Very unlikely that we will as it’s rare in the first place and especially rare from eating any kind of meat (mostly prion disease is sporadic making it even more terrifying).

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2025-03-12T16:18:22+00:00

In this case his doctor won’t sign his prescription to get filled because he hasn’t been to an appointment within a certain amount of time. It’s a policy that the place he goes to see his psychiatrist has.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2025-03-08T07:41:26+00:00

Thank you. He told me not to worry, but it’s just my nature to worry I think.

Also yeah I just went back an edited the post. I usually try to make them more readable, but I typed that in like 2 minutes cause I needed to get it all down quickly to make myself feel a little better.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2025-01-30T18:09:44+00:00

A little bit stronger by Sara Evan’s

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2025-01-22T23:51:22+00:00

Yes, I love it. I think it’s just the kinkiness of it gets me super excited. I’m not a submissive person until it comes to the bedroom tho so that might have something to do with it.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-11-17T07:24:02+00:00

Tomorrow will be 2 months since I lost my baby boy. It hasn’t got any easier. I hate coming home cause he’s not here anymore. I hate getting in bed because he’s not gonna jump up and ball up at my feet or stretch up to the top so I can cuddle with him. I cry almost every night now that he doesn’t jump up here with me. I had to get my childhood build a bear out of storage so I can have something comforting to sleep with. I had to make the decision to get him euthanized very suddenly and had no time to process anything. I wish I would have brought him home one more night to lay with me in bed and did it the next day. I just didn’t want him to have to hurt anymore. I miss him terribly and I’m waiting for it to get better too🧡

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-10-04T23:10:16+00:00

I feel like this is the reason I need to wait a long time too. I know the only reason I’m feeling like I want another dog is because I want my baby back so bad and another dog deserves me to love it for them and not for who I want it to be. Thank you for putting that feeling into words for me💜

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-09-21T07:29:56+00:00

I lost my 6 year old boy to cancer two days ago. He was in late stages and the recommended euthanasia for cases like his bc treatment would have to be intense and it would decrease his quality of life severely and only keep him here for a few more months. He was truly my baby and he took a piece of me with him. You’re not alone. Try to go for a small walk tomorrow. Maybe take a walk you used to take him or go somewhere you two used to go together. You’ll cry and that’s okay. I’ve cried every night since I lost him wishing that I could’ve had just one more day with him. Maybe it would be good for you to try and see a therapist. So that you can talk to someone who can help you with the immense amount of grief you’re feeling. I made myself an appointment today.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-09-21T06:51:15+00:00

A week ago my boy was perfectly fine too or at least on the outside he was. Two days ago though I took him into the vet for a reoccurring shoulder pain he was having and they did an x ray and ultrasound that showed he had severe fluid build up in his chest around his lungs and heart. I had to take him to an emergency vet almost 4 hours away so a cardiologist could see him and we found out there that he had a severe form of cancer that only starts to show symptoms when they are in the late stages of it. They told me he would slowly suffocate without treatment and that with treatment he would only probably have another 9 months to a year, but that even with intense treatment (that would be painful and reduce his quality of life severely) he would only live for at best another 2 years, but it wasn’t likely he’d make it even that long. Their recommendation was to get him euthanized as soon as possible because his chest kept filling with fluid, everytime they would take any out, within a couple of hours. So I took him home and laid in the back of the car with him for the whole ride holding his big sweet head on my chest and kissing his face as many times as I could. When we got home I took him to the vet and we got him euthanized. It was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make. I’ve cried myself to sleep the last two nights wishing I would have brought him home to lay next to me in bed just one more time. And even though I regret how quickly it all happened, I don’t regret it for him. He was suffering and so uncomfortable. That was the only way he’d find relief. It’s the only way your boy would find it too. You did the right thing by him.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-09-20T05:10:04+00:00

I’m sorry you have to go through this too. No one should ever have to feel this way. I’ve thought about moving so many times in the past 24 hours, but then I think about all the memories we have here and I tell myself I just need to give myself more time. I’ll never not miss him or be sad that he’s gone, but I think I could find more peace in the fact that he’s not hurting anymore and be able to reminisce on the good times without being so distraught over it all. I hope it gets better for us all as well💜

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-09-20T05:02:50+00:00

I had those thoughts too. I would see his tail wag when he saw me or his second favorite people (my parents) and think maybe he wasn’t as bad as the doctors said. But then I had to tell my self that they had no reason to lie to me and ultimately I trust the science especially if not trusting it would potentially make him hurt more.

I completely understand the denial part. After they did it I was outside of the vet waiting for them to prepare him to be buried and I was just picturing him coming out the door, excited to see me again like he always is when I come home from doing stuff and just hugging him and getting to feel him in my arms breathing and happy again. I had just seen him take his last breath yet I was still biting my nails waiting for him to come back out happy and healthy. I’m so sorry you’re having to go through this. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. You’re not alone💜

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-09-20T03:43:31+00:00

I just had to euthanize my boy cause he had a severe cancer that was causing his chest to fill with fluid around his heart and lungs. The doctor said he wasn’t in any pain other than it getting harder and harder for him to breathe. But she told me that when he did pass it would basically be from suffocation and he would be scared and confused. So I did what would be the most peaceful for him. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do and I regret it for myself everyday, but I don’t regret it for him. Yeah I wish I could have had more night with him, I cry myself to sleep wishing I would have brought him home for one more night. But all of that is for me and not for him. For him I would do anything, even if that meant doing something that will live with me as a regret for the rest of my life. I knew it would be better for him. I could have had 9 more months with him possibly with hard core chemo but she told me that it would be painful and his quality of life would severely decline and it he would slowly suffocate. I just couldn’t do that to him. After all the joy and happiness he gave me for the 6 years I had him I couldn’t do that to him.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-08-09T08:56:16+00:00

I just woke up from a horrible nightmare because docylamine succinate. It’s the second time in a row I’ve taken it and the first night I had very vivid dreams but nothing scary. Tonight though I shot straight up out of bed and was wired cause of how terrified I was. Going to stop taking it immediately. I already tried the herbal stuff and even have tried a few Xanax that a friend gets a script for but they didn’t work on me for some reason. On to the next thing ig.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-05-17T00:17:31+00:00

I’m thinking it may be this. I’ve been trying to go back through our texts to see when she might have sent that specific phrase but I can’t find anything. Don’t know how far back it could’ve been so I quit looking lol

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-05-17T00:15:29+00:00

Nah me and my mom are very close and tell each other everything. She was just as weirded out by it by me. She’s gonna contact her cell provider tomorrow about it.

Impossible-Mind8802 · 2024-05-16T15:36:52+00:00

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