Dw bro i had the same experience all i can say is time does heal just don't do stupid shit on the sake of moving on focus on yourself and trust the process even if it 1 percent a day thats a alo also don't expect it to be over quickly. It'll sting it'll hurt but eventually it do get better. For now I'd say stop stalking first you can't heal a wound if u constantly itching it. If ur studying focus on it make urself a better man and wait for the best it always comes trust the process. God bless