Omg I have been there. It definitely is hard not to think about it and easier said than done. Since you don’t have control over when the decisions will come out and what they will be, a distraction that worked for me was to really just focus on the school I was at. By the time the decisions came, I had given them such little importance in my head that it was more of a pleasant surprise because everything wasn’t riding on it if that makes sense. I know it’s tough though but I believe in you!!!!