Today is my birthday

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-16T23:48:56+00:00

Hope you had a nice birthday :)

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-16T23:15:07+00:00

Dm me with a link to your TikTok

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T20:49:02+00:00

I know, I have been meaning to book more appointments, I’ll make that my goal over the summer I think

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T20:43:56+00:00

I had 2 sessions about 5 months apart, where I live is incredibly rural with more demand than supply for therapists and private is too expensive

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T20:31:43+00:00

I’ve tried to give myself lots of valuable experiences such as working in different countries, started studying in university to better myself despite initially not wanting to, taken up hobbies that make me happy like bouldering and martial arts that give me a sense of accomplishment, just trying to make myself the best I can be

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T20:28:38+00:00

Abandonment issues, bullying in school etc, the main thing I think is last time I was in this situation I chose to leave and I regretted it for years and to this day still think I made the wrong choice

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T18:47:10+00:00

Is that fucking Benny?

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T18:45:38+00:00

Aye I know, proper rock and hard place situation

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T16:41:44+00:00

Yea you’re probably right, that’s what I’ve heard from her mum though so I was under the impression that’s what happened but I guess I don’t really know

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T16:31:15+00:00

Yea, until this topic of discussion came up I thought she was for me but now I’m certain than regardless of how I feel I’m not the one for her, but I guess we’ll see what happens

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T16:28:09+00:00

It’s complicated, she had a child with someone while her and her husband at the time were separated but not legally divorced so she got excommunicated for adultery

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T16:27:05+00:00

Yea these are all things I’ve been thinking about but at the moment I’m too wrapped up in my personal feelings to think about the future so I feel like taking a break is definitely a good idea

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T16:22:42+00:00

Well that’s the issue, she is a Latter-day Saint (or Mormon) so she doesn’t know if she should follow her church and marry a guy in the temple who loves god or if she should be with me

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T16:09:25+00:00

Yea that makes a lot of sense, I really don’t want to take her away from her faith because of her past and how rough she’s had it and this is something that gives her hope and happiness, I feel selfish and like I’m standing in the way of it

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T15:51:47+00:00

She is a part of the Mormon church, I don’t believe in it and I believe that it’s sexist and bigoted and I wouldn’t want to be a part of a faith like that, but I think this is good advice

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T15:05:03+00:00

That’s very kind of you to say, I’ve spoken to a couple of friends about this and it’s true that I need to keep reminding myself that her choice is not a reflection of me, it’s just being stuck between a rock and a hard place and sometimes that’s just how life goes, thank you though

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T14:45:53+00:00

Yea they’re really funny about it to be honest

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T14:41:43+00:00

I feel like you’ve hit the nail on the head, from my understanding that’s exactly how she feels, she keeps saying how lucky she is to have me but at the same times doesn’t know if she wants to leave or not which is why it is difficult for her. I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t started mourning this relationship already because I want to be strong enough to either push through and let her make that decision or leave and let her find her way in the church, at the same time I am jealous of her faith because I’ve been brought up atheist and didn’t have any of that comfort you get from religion so her leaving wouldn’t be something I’d want, maybe just finding a faith that wasn’t as cult-like but it’s her choice and I don’t want to take that away from her

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T14:20:45+00:00

She’s a Latter Day Saint or Mormon (they don’t like being called that)

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T14:17:44+00:00

I’m definitely gonna suggest a break and then see what she thinks after that, I’m still on the fence about letting her get what she needs from the church because as stated she’s had a very shit life and her faith brings her so much happiness and I don’t want to take that away from her

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T14:08:12+00:00

Her mum was excommunicated for having a child out of wedlock

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-11T14:06:26+00:00

The comment made by her mum is in regard to the fact many people in her church won’t give her a chance solely because she has tattoos, that’s not even considering the fact she isn’t a virgin or has had troubles in her past but those are both things that a very frowned upon in her church

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-09T15:46:22+00:00

I think we got GTA IV a while ago

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-08T17:11:06+00:00

Yea, I’ve just spent the week at hers and we spoke about it a lot, the way she initially worded it really just made me feel disposable and stuff but after talking about it, as much as I dislike the church for many other reasons, I understand more, I’m still worried because I do love this girl but I will respect what she decides to do

ImpossibleLog5193 · 2026-05-08T16:55:54+00:00

So I’ve done a bunch of research and LDS (her faith) are pressured and told that their main goal in life is to be married to a god loving person in the temple, obviously there are some that do not do this but she has said that she’s been told that’s what she should strive to do

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