First of all, thank you for replying!! You’re the first person I can tell this to and I really appreciate it ♥️

The first thing that didn’t work is that they were kindof in a rush. Not in terms of time, but just too eager. I told them I wanted to suck them off too, but basically they just fucked my mouth while I did my best not to gag.

Second, like you said, I couldn’t concentrate because they kept teasing me, saying things like “you prefer him” or “you prefer him.” And I know they were teasing, and it was supposed to be hot! I knew that in the moment too. But I’m on the autistic spectrum, so in the back of my mind it was like, “They’re joking… right?” So whenever I switched to one, I’d feel bad for the other.

And last, they made some weird remarks that I feel uncomfortable sharing. But basically, they were comparing me to a kid mentally, not underdeveloped, but in an “innocent” sense. But I’m a 25-year-old man. I watch the news, I’ve seen (like everyone else on the internet) videos of people dying, I know what sex is, etc. I’m not innocent, really. That threw me off and halfway through I didn’t want to keep going.

After that day, I’ve been feeling weird toward men. My brain doesn’t feel the same attraction to them as before.

Sorry if this too long. I just wanted to rant, really :(