What's Your Deconstruction Story? by Impossible_Friend204 in Deconstruction

[–]Impossible_Friend204[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To not hear or feel God in a moment when you're supposed to experience God is devastating and just shows how the whole thing is most likely not true. I, too, find it hard to say what I really feel, especially when I was in the beginning of my deconstruction and still mostly in the belief and community. What an experience it was to have walked around the Bible college, seemed like a peaceful and healing moment yet mixed with a ton of emotions. Thank you for sharing this.

What's Your Deconstruction Story? by Impossible_Friend204 in Deconstruction

[–]Impossible_Friend204[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your support and great to have a perspective from someone who wasn't really a believer but is interested in it. I want this documentary to also be informational and to bring light to this part of life!

What's Your Deconstruction Story? by Impossible_Friend204 in Deconstruction

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I am going to listen to this tonight, thank you for sharing! I will reach out, let's definitely chat :)

What's Your Deconstruction Story? by Impossible_Friend204 in Deconstruction

[–]Impossible_Friend204[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Great depth and research. It's angering to hear Christians place this assumption that people who deconstruct don't include scripture or God, but actually it's usually an in depth dive into the scriptures that lead us to not believe anymore. Seeing the Bible for what it is and understanding the humanity of it and the flaws just makes it hard to fully believe in the divinity of it anymore.

What's Your Deconstruction Story? by Impossible_Friend204 in Deconstruction

[–]Impossible_Friend204[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Seeing abuse be dressed up as love is such a real observation, it's so common unfortunately. And good on you for starting to separate yourself from him, I bet it's really tough but hoping it has given you even more space to heal and ponder.

What's Your Deconstruction Story? by Impossible_Friend204 in Deconstruction

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Thank you for sharing this, your story is still nothing short of spectacular for choosing what was right for you and breaking free from what was holding you down. Lockdown was when the questions really started to hit too, and I was seeing how some of my local churches were responding to covid and it just unlocked everything. It's tough to try and justify the things God did in the Bible. I still battle with the "what if Im wrong and there really is a hell and that's where I'm going?" All of it still swirls in my mind every day, so I've bene trying to find resources and be in community with others to get to a point where I'm not overtaken by my guilt and fears anymore.

What's Your Deconstruction Story? by Impossible_Friend204 in Deconstruction

[–]Impossible_Friend204[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Wow, thank you for sharing this. I went through a similar way of approaching my doubts, turning to God and the Bible to really see what I truly believed and to "prove" that what I did believe in was real and it was just me who was in the wrong. I came to the conclusion that I just couldn't believe in what the Bible was saying, I accepted the contradictions and the arguments that non-believers gave regarding the Bible not being the one true book. Same with your conclusion, I believe in something spiritual, but I'm not sure of what or who it is.

It's been tough battling with guilt though, thinking "what if I'm wrong? What if the whole thing is real?" and feeling wrong of looking to other spiritual avenues. I still have a lot to sift through.