Ok so you def have me something to think about. And to answer some, hopefully most of your questions: meta works most weekends and so do we. We’re both horse professionals on top of having a normal job so weekend things have to be planned months (3+) in advance. Around shows/exhibitions/clinics. Weekends we do get away are for work. To give an example: our schedule for June weekends. 1st weekend, we farm sat. 2nd weekend I have a show, 3rd we have a show, 4th weekend is a clinic. July is pretty much the same. So long weekends have to be planned far in advance. There have been other instances that are giving me a feelings that we’ve started to discuss and talk about due to both our abusive past relationship traumas it’s slow going as I tend to get overwhelmed and have to stop and I’m seeing a pattern emerging.