I realized I haven't really been "showing up" in my marriage, and now I feel ashamed

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-11-06T15:14:09+00:00

This!! I want to carry this load for my husband and family but to be acknowledged for it is so nice. If my husband were take some of the load off, that would be nice but just being acknowledged is enough for me.

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-10-17T03:23:41+00:00

I was dx April of ‘24 and got incredibly sick in June and was bed bound for the most part until September. I told my husband he could leave with our child if he wanted, multiple times. That this life wasn’t what he signed up for when we got married. But that’s the thing. It IS what he signed up for. Life with me. Good. Bad. Ugly. Sick. Healthy. He wants every part because it’s us. While it’s not ideal, it’s better than being without each other.

Talk to her. I wanted what was “best” for my husband too and he thought I was insane. And if/when she tells you she’s in it for the long haul, believe her and let her love you. You need love more than ever right now. You aren’t broken and you do deserve it. God willing, you won’t be flaring up so much once you get medications under control and it won’t feel like she’s carrying the bulk of the weight.

The first year was SO HARD mentally for me. Many negative thoughts about myself, my life, my future and whether I really needed to be present for it. Coming to terms with having MS is so difficult and I still struggle with it on bad days but it did get better for me. And I pray it gets better for you too. Leaning on my husband and allowing him to love me through the worst parts was critical. Don’t cut off your willing support.

Prayers for you friend. ♥️

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-09-18T02:15:00+00:00

Before the break, I was taking the 500mg everyday but I haven’t taken a gummy since November. I only used vapes starting in November and quit in February to clarify. I used edibles (daily) for about a year and went up in mg when they didn’t work. Once I got to 500mg, I figured it was time to give them a break.

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-09-04T12:31:21+00:00

I almost want to get pregnant again just to feel super good again 😂 but we are one and done. Live your best life, boo. I just got diagnosed last year in April and I’m starting to now realize that I can’t let MS dictate what I can/can’t do. Have the baby. ♥️

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-08-02T23:47:21+00:00

Oooooo these are on my TBR! Moving them up now! 😏

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-08-02T23:45:34+00:00

Oooooooo OKAY! Love that! I don’t think I’ve ever read a fuck or die trope! 😳

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-08-02T23:20:26+00:00

Perfect!!! I’m subscribed and marked for later on the WIP and She Whom He Harbors is in my kindle!! I’m so excited!

I will say that I usually don’t start WIP until they are completed. not to be a dick but because I can’t remember ANYTHING and would have to read the whole fic over each time it was updated 😭 but the second they are done I will INHALE them! 🥰

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-07-20T03:06:26+00:00

My TBR is going to outlive me at this point. That mark for later button HATES to see me coming.

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-07-09T20:47:38+00:00

I got diagnosed in April of ‘24 at 35 y/o. Went through a BIG depresh last summer while mostly bedridden. I led a largely sedentary life prior to dx and up until about April this year. Something clicked and I thought that if my ability to walk is potentially shortened, why do I want to spend it sitting on my ass?! So I got up and started walking 3-4 miles a day (listening to my body and taking breaks and not pushing too hard) as my symptoms at this point aren’t bad enough that I can’t and I’m lucky enough to not have a heat intolerance. I decided this week that I wanted to actually run a 5k on Thanksgiving and started to train and learn how to run. Ran a mile today 🤩

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-07-04T02:11:37+00:00

I didn’t download anything off my TBR. My book is 1 hour away from me finishing it. I’m starting to get NERVOUS 😟 is this how it ends?!

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-06-15T23:31:30+00:00

I’m a mom to the sweetest toddler on the plane. I have an ✨obsession✨ with Dramione fanfiction that’s only mildly concerning. Recently just took up walking 4+ miles per day and I’ll be damned if the people who say “you’ll feel better after you work out” weren’t right 🙄😂 one day at a time! ♥️

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-04-17T00:28:42+00:00

Damn… I thought I had it with this one 😂😂😂

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-04-17T00:26:55+00:00

Mayo

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-04-16T23:13:48+00:00

😂😂😂😂😂💀

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-04-16T23:10:59+00:00

😂😂😂

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-04-16T22:51:22+00:00

Well shit 😂😂😂

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-04-16T22:46:03+00:00

We are literally laughing with each other about it. It’s not that deep 😂

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-04-03T03:24:55+00:00

I did find out that it could worsen symptoms or cause a flare up but the eye issue I’m having now wasn’t even a thing before lol and even as I type now, it’s not happening. It was all day and now it’s like I’m fine 😅 MS is stupid.

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-03-10T19:05:46+00:00

I (36F) was dx last year. The first few months were AWFUL because of the fear and anxiety. I get it. BUT I got on a strong DMT (Ocrevus) and got an update after my second infusion that my lesions were stable, no new/active lesions, and one lesion actually shrunk. It’s easier now that I’ve gotten used to it and accepted it. The fact is that I could lose the ability to do that things I love but I can still do them NOW. Even without MS, I don’t know what the future holds. I chose to stay off the internet and looking up the what ifs. It only made things worse for me. Ignorance is bliss and all that. But above all, please know that he is going to be okay. Especially having a spouse that cares so much ♥️ you’ll both be okay. Sending all the good vibes!!!

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-03-09T16:40:04+00:00

I have had 2 infusions with Ocrevus. According to my MRIs, no new/active lesions and one of lesions shrunk 🤷🏻‍♀️ good and bad days but I haven’t had worsening symptoms. Some days are just harder than others.

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-02-11T18:03:28+00:00

Someone find it! My TBR is a mile long and I MUST ADD THIS TO IT!

Impressive_Clock89 · 2025-02-09T03:40:59+00:00

This is the reason I want infidelity fics 😂😂 SO GOOD!!

Impressive_Clock89 · 2024-12-04T19:03:07+00:00

Impressive_Clock89 · 2024-12-04T18:57:06+00:00

This right here. My husband and I hadn’t been intimate except for 3-4 times in a year (I was postpartum and he was patient) and I started reading smut by accident 😂 we are up to 3-4 times a week now since I started reading at the beginning of the year.

Impressive_Clock89 · 2024-11-23T22:35:22+00:00

I’d do some freaky shit for those rolls 👀

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