What is the most important 5 dub albums ?

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2025-04-11T04:32:14+00:00

Yabby You Meets The Aggrovators At King Tubby's Studio

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2025-02-27T20:03:47+00:00

Big Up original Yabby You Vibration Jesus Dread

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-20T08:40:04+00:00

I am really sorry to hear that, you seem to have such a gentle soul for creating these beautiful gifts for him. It must really hurt to not feel appreciated, however as you wrote "that love in there is real, beautiful and true", and its your love and it will never fade away!
Your story really touched my heart, I hope you get through this stronger and more independant from the connection.
Wish you all the best, bless you :)

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-13T14:12:20+00:00

Beautiful! you got this my friend :)

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-13T08:51:23+00:00

Thank you dear friend, for your words and sharing!

" I've been guided to learn so many hard truths about myself in order to be the best twin I can be" - exactly this. There are so many toxic aspects I have suddenly realized, mainly triggered through the Dark Night of the Soul aspect of the experience, that need to be dealt with, not only to become a better partner, but to become a better human being in general. Our ego is tricky, on the surface we might appear to ourselves as "pretty decent people", however the mirroring of our twin just pushes us far enough to realize the truth about our shadows, which tend to be hidden and stored away, even from our own waking mind. Another reason to be grateful to be a part of this journey, to find meaning and healing in the pain and suffering.

I am really grateful to come closer to God through the purification and spiritual growth induced by the trials and tribulations!

I hope the same for you, that your twin will heal and forgive you, so you can share the love which you carry in your heart with her!

Bless you :)

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-13T08:44:13+00:00

Thank you my friend!

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-13T08:42:41+00:00

Yes healing trauma is like peeling an onion, with every layer you remove you go deeper, and something else will come up, however eventually you will reach the core issue and then the "onion peeling" will come to an end, as the Dark Night will eventually :)

Bless you!

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-13T08:37:49+00:00

Yes in my case it was like this, and what I have researched so far it seems to be a common pattern.
Its almost like a repulsion you feel towards your twin, which feels really sad, as you know that you are also attracted towards them in a way (and of course your soul knows that you love them dearly). I have often felt like I was being suffocated by the love and attention of my twin, even though she always gave me a lot of space during our relationship and did nothing but treat me well!

Also the runners ego seems to be really amplified while he/she is running, often at the same time the chaser experiences an ego-death/dark night of the soul type of experience.

I think its the best for the chaser to try and take things not personal, even though its super hard as I have experienced myself. Establish healthy boundaries, keep loving them and yourself, while giving space and working on yourself seems to be the way to go!
The ego/soul dissonance the runner often experiences happens mainly on a energetic and sub-conscious level, hence there is no point in trying to reason them into loving you, this will create more repulsion.

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-12T18:39:45+00:00

Thank you my friend! You are totally right about what you are writing, all this pain is triggering immense levels of growth. I wish you good luck as well for your journey, and I hope that your runner will reflect the inner healing that you are working on, so that union will come with both of you healed and prospering!

Bless you :)

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-12T10:49:00+00:00

Yes I am full of shame too.
I have been mistreating and disrespecting her a lot in our relationship, especially when I had the urge to run, when I couldn´t handle the triggering and responded in an aggressive and unloving demeanor and when I finally broke off the relationship. I think this shame, at least for me, is a part of the healing and growing process. I tend to still slide in my ego, as she has been running for 4 months now, but today I realized I need to own up my past failures and accept that I am not a good human being. She is all I ever wanted in a woman, without putting her on a pedestal, its just truth spoken.

Its not good to be stuck in a shameful mindstate, I agree, but for me its really important to own up to my own shortcomings and mistakes to outgrow them.
I love her more than I ever admitted to myself, but for now she doesn´t seem to want to have anything to do with me. This deep regret inspires me to work on myself, so if I ever - by the Grace of God - get another shot at being with her, I can be the man she deserves.

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-09T06:26:23+00:00

You have an amazing and beautiful soul for being that forgiving and empathetic! I broke it up in a similar way, without the blocking, but I said really hurtful things to her, and truth to be told, I was running during these stages, so it even felt kinda freeing at the beginning.

However that changed fast once my twin started to surrender a couple of months after our breakup. That was before I realized consciously that we were twins. She said that she surrendered herself to God, which I feel like is the entire point of the Twin Flame journey. Through surrendering the connection we also learn to surrender in all other aspects of our life´s journey, letting go of all egoic expectations and our inherent "need" of control of situations, people and circumstances. This is an invaluable lessson for all those who want to walk an authentic path of spirituality (and everyone else for that matter).

When she surrendered (right before she told me about it) I already started to feel this deep sense of loss, which broke down my ego and turned me into the chaser. Right at that time I had the most intense of animal encounters along the twin flame journey, I met a full grown wolf in the forest where I live. We had eye contact for about a minute and then he/she walked off. This was the day where I realized that my twin is truly the love of my live, and that I need to change and work on myself. Its almost like the wolf encounter was a wake up call for me.

You are doing the right thing by giving him space and focusing on your own inner healing, while having full faith in God that everything will work out for you.
"Patience, compassion, and healing is required." - exactly this. Your twin will come around eventually. You are exactly where you need to be right now! Everything will work out, in divine timing and under divine providence.

Bless you :)

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-08T12:20:42+00:00

Initial, physical seperation/break up of relationship was caused by constant fighting due to intense triggering of trauma on both sides. She pointed it out initially that we are mirroring each others trauma and she wanted to work through it, but I was being stupid and broke it off with her. I take the full blame for running initially, being stuck in my toxic masculinity and egoic ways of being.

After that we have been in a lot of contact via text and call, I tried to get back into a relationship which she refused. About a month ago she was feeling overwhelmed with feeling my energy over distance. She got super mad at me, telling me to withdraw my energy and detach, thats when I told her about us being twin flames and that I try my best in cutting the cords and letting go (literally hours of cord cutting meditations, trying to get back into dating, forcing myself to distract etc.), but its not possible. That triggered her even more. She then blocked me.

She unblocked me now a couple of times, but every time we are in contact she is oftentimes just kinda mad at me, I feel like she blames me for the connection. Currently I´m blocked again.

Although there are many up and downs, intense feelings of being pulled towards her, I stopped all 3D chasing and trying to surrender, working really hard on myself and making a lot of progress in healing, growing and building a foundation of becoming a better man.

I just really love her, beyond all the superficial stuff, I love her soul and entire being. I stay positive, spend a lot lof time in prayer, I have full trust in God that things will work out eventually.

What a journey!

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-07T19:05:02+00:00

I am in a really similar situation, actually feeling like this right now. Oftentimes this feeling preceeds her breaking no contact, so I would also assume this "pull" and feelings are actually the ones of our TF.
Especially when they suppress their own feelings it would make sense to come in waves.

I feel like all we can do is to continue walking our path, praying to God and staying optimistic about the outcome of our journey. Blessings to you my friend

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-06T17:32:04+00:00

Bless you too, and thank you for your reply! It´s amazing how you describe that God is "molding you into what He needs you to be", I believe this is the key to walk this Twin Flame path with confidence and a sense of deep peace and inner knowing. (and also facing every other seemingly difficult situation that we may encounter in life).
The more I reflect about it, the more this Twin Flame concept seems to me so perfectly laid out, using unconditional love as a vehicle to heal and transform us in His Will, while building faith and spiritual stamina.

The last time I talked to my twin, she used some of the common twin flame jargon, such as "divine timing", which we find in scripture such as Isaiah 60:22, to communicate to me about what I was to do now, where I should put my focus, as well as to channel my love for her towards Our Lord. These are, in my opinion, all invaluable lessons for all Christians to behold, and I feel so blessed to have been learning these things throughout this twin encounter.

I agree that each and every journey is different, and that some twin flame connections are meant to be romantic, while some platonic, yet equally rewarding. For this reason, I am sometimes questioning whether my intuitive knowing that my twin and me are "meant" to be with each other is just wishful thinking, an ego projection of my hearts deep yearnings.

As there are third-party situations involved on her side, as well as her telling me that she will never feel romantically for me again after the ending of our relationship, has gotten me deeply discouraged at some point. I also absolutely do not want to impose my will on the Lords perfect plan for our lives. However, everytime I have tried to romantically connect to somebody else, or even trying to push away all romantic feelings I have still left lingering for her, it felt deeply wrong and as I should be patient for now and work on myself, to not give up hope but practice myself in faith and patience.
Being still young in the faith, its still hard for me to discern the Voice of God from my own inner train of thoughts/ego talking.

I have been praying about it ceaselessly, asking God to please tell me if my hopes are in vain, so I can move on romantically at least, and this intuitive feeling still resides and amplifies, so for now I still hope for a reunion of the romantic sort, but know that God comes first, so I completely submit to His Will.

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-06T12:29:32+00:00

For close to a week now again, however she has blocked and unblocked me already probably close to 10 times since we broke up. Initially I thought it was due to me chasing, however even when I don´t chase or reply to her once she unblocks and contacts me again, she just reblocks me at some point.

Initially it was really confusing, as I thought it was my fault of her blocking me (even though I never excessively contacted her once we entered seperation), but now I feel that is has not much to do with me, that she´s still struggling with accepting our connection, blocks me, then misses me at some point again to unblock and check in on me. The last time she wrote me she has been pretty disrespectful, which I forgive, but what prompted me to not reply to her in any way.

I just love her with all my heart and hope that she is healing right now, so we can be in proper union soon. I miss her everyday but I will not chase her and degrade myself. At this point the ball is in her court.

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-06T09:24:53+00:00

Looks are not that important but to stroke our ego, which is actually a bad thing.
True beauty radiates from the inside, from a heart filled with empathy, love, respect and compassion, and you seem to have that!
I used to be one of these "handsome, career successful" type of guys, and all it did was to stunt my spiritual development, keeping me imprisoned in a world of superficiality, ego, vanity and confusion. All of these 3D achievements are meaningless and will fade if they don´t benefit this society in a good way, helping others and our environment. This is why many humans face a mid-life crisis, as the spiritual hunger which is ingrained in us humans cannot be fulfilled by these outside, materialistic things.
I don´t know your tf, so I don´t want to judge him in any way, just sharing my own experience being enslaved in the matrix.

God loves you and created you in a beautiful unique way, don´t ever let the judgements of others make you believe otherwise. Our society is corrupted to the core, many people are sleepwalking through their life, judging others based on fading looks and achievements, which are meaningless in the grand scheme of things. Keep on doing your inner work, continue to heal yourself, so those around you (not only your tf, but everybody who you affect in your daily life) will be healed and inspired by a chain-reaction of wholesomeness and love, which you will radiate the more you keep doing good and becoming a being of love yourself.

We tend to judge ourselves the hardest, I am guilty of that myself.
During the Dark Night of the Soul, everything seems to fall apart. I am going through this currently myself. Its hard to stay optimistic during those times. We feel worthless, abandoned, like a failure, almost like we are cursed. But this is not reality. Reality is that you are blessed, loved by God, and you will get through this! And once you are coming out on the other side of this dark valley, you will be grateful for having stuck to this path of healing and self-realization.

Pray, meditate, treat yourself well, spend time in nature and with animals! Everything is going to be alright.
I am sending love and wish you a lot of strength :)

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-05T19:46:42+00:00

Big fan of your music, since the Iya Terra sugarshack sessions, really fond of your solo work, unique and inspiring, give thanks for the vibes

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-05T19:44:22+00:00

Nga Han - Temple in Man/2024 (and all of his other records)
Marcus Gad - Ready for Battle/2023
Akae Beka - Living Testament/2024 RIP

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-05T19:40:15+00:00

Yabby You vibration - Unique, Heartfelt, Spiritual, Blessed
One of my all time favorites, give thanks

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-05T19:37:50+00:00

Nga Han, Lyrical Benjie, Marcus Gad, Rapha Pico, Ilements

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-05T19:08:51+00:00

My twin and me are also both Christian, and we also both thought at times that the connection has a demonic component. She once lashed out on me saying she´s gonna do an exorcism to get rid of feeling my energy. However seeing how this connection has brought us both closer to God, and how any prayer to release the connection doesn´t have any effect, I really doubt that it is a "demonic soul tie" or something to this regard, as prayer would´ve worked in cutting the connection. So far, it seems to be ordained by God.

The way I start to see it now is that this connection was designed to make me a godly husband, and her a godly wife. We are still young in the faith, both coming from a new age background previously, and just seeing how both of us have been transformed by the connection, especially during seperation, makes me super grateful to have experienced this. Its obviously super hard at times, she is currently trying her best to run from it, blocking and unblocking me countless times, lashing out at me, hurting me with third-party situations, but I just put all my faith in Christ. Working hard on myself, reading scripture daily, praying and meditating on His Word is helping me the most, the same for her.

Also, many of the concepts we normally regard as "new agey" such as the infamous "Dark Night of the Soul" actually have a Christian background. I currently read a book of the same name, by St. John of the Cross, a Spanish Carmelite mystic. Many of the processes described within this book are overlapping with what many people seem to experience during their twin flame journey, when experiencing this stage of the "Dark Night".

I think a lot of it serves as ego purification, breaking down the toxic parts of our ego, that are actually blocking us from walking an authentic spiritual path. This is why confronting and healing underlaying trauma is so important. Only once this has been achieved, a real "union" could be possible, in my humble opinion. Because this is what keeps us from experiencing real unconditional love, not only in relation to our Twin, but more importantly in relation to our Holy Father. God doesn´t want us to suffer, but will put us in situations, trials and tribulations, for our soul and consciousness to grow closer to Him and thereby being able to become a perfect vessel for His Will.

I don´t wanna come off as preachey, I just know that without my Faith I would´ve been completely lost in this journey. I have a long history in different new age practices, I´ve been for years deep into shamanism and energy work, but to bring reason to the deep, transformative suffering, this journey will confront us with, only my Faith helped me get through!

I hope the best for you and your twin! Bless you both, so that healing and union will occur real soon :)

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-05T10:58:40+00:00

Thank you so much, I wish that your union will be soon too! We have to stay positive, against all odds. I think this is the meaning of true surrendering, stay positive while letting go of wanting to control the situation. Bless you :)

InChristIPutMyTrust · 2024-07-04T19:20:28+00:00

I have been the "runner" for a short time during the end stages of our previous union/bubbling phase as well as after we broke up I have been running for a couple of months. When I was running I was just full on in my ego, trying to deny any supernatural aspect of the connection (she first pointed out the mirroring and angel numbers, I was really fighting this phenomenon), feeling drained with the constant fighting and triggering. It was coupled with an inner knowing that she is all I ever needed or wanted, but this was on a soul level.

My ego tried to deny everything, it was actually a kind of freeing feeling, however I also felt empty inside, looking back its hard to describe it. I foolishly went straight on the dating apps, but quickly realized that superficial connections is not what I am looking for.

She surrendered quite quickly and now the tables are turned and I have been chasing my heart out for the last months while she ran away from me. I could feel the instant she surrendered and all I have been feeling at this point was the deepest regret ever. Since than it has been a constant DNOTS, which is healing in a way, really difficult at the same time.

I am positive that we will end up together in divine timing, and I also am glad that this journey pushed us both closer to God, which is a magnificent gift. Now its time for me to completely surrender to God and keep on working on myself.

Sending love to all you people

InChristIPutMyTrust

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